Just when u never expected something to happen and it does, my experience is that whatever comfort zone that i am in just crashes down on me.

All i can say now is to really really cherish and appreciate everything around me regardless the length of time. I am very very very thankful that Narin has brought me into AW and made me realise and be aware of all my precious gifts. It is really time for me to show up and really be the person i am. I will be strong and supportive and live my contract !

What's not working???

Realised that work efficiency is dropping once again.

I know it's distraction from LP stuff... and i think i've really lost interest and things here are not exciting me anymore. Signs that i should move on... Stop procrastinating and TAKE ACTION !!!!

Slow slow slow... geezzz... wad on earth am i doing ?? Really cannot take it... 1 year is up in 1 wks time and i should proli be moving elsewhere.... so what am i waiting for ?? WHAT DO I WANT ?!!?!?

SINGLES' NITE PARTY

Hey dudes !!!! Annoucing a Singles' Nite Party !!!!

Pls come down and bring ur friends along !!! More details in the pic below....

Dress code: smart casual

Please help spread the word !!!!! Thanks a million guys !!!!!

Chrissy is boreddd...

Chrissy is @ work.

But Chrissy is feeling boreddd.... lolx... (frequent chatters on msn/gmail will wonder... since when am i ever NOT bored... tsk tsk)

Can't help but wonder why ppl can stay in this office for 9-10 yrs... but recently more ppl going off la... i nid to buck up manz... wan to move means quickily move... gonna be 1 yr anniversary already... ZzZZZz ... wonder how time just passed by like this... i've been the owner of this PC , table , chair and spot for almost 1 yr... LOL

Bored @ work... but life's been pretty busy for the 3 wks i'm in LP. Hehe... lotsa stuff to handle and get busy with. Pushes me... gets things done... go go go !!! Gonna start on saxophone classes soon !!! Excited abt that too... hehe.... something which i;ve yearned to learn... but never took action to get a step closer. LP does it !!!! Yeah !!!

Arrghhzz.... only half day goneeeeeeeee ZzZzzZzzz

Ming's convo + Aftermath drinks at Marina Mandarin

Me and the aspiring grad... =)

It's US again... hahaha... the same kinda pic we took at my convo. Just that the mortar is now on my head ! tsk tsk....

Group pic...
Yvonne, Ming , Ade, Lucia, Me and Jamie

Cool eh ??? LOL
it's M.A.C !!!! just that position a bit wrong.. lol

The above pic and this one @ Marina Mandarin... my Pina Colada and Ming's snowball...

The morning conversation

Just had a conversation with my senior this morning.

Feedback i have... stuff i do are not stretchy... missing out on impt points... my being... not showing up... my mirror reflections... etc...

Is there any difference before joining LP and being IN LP !??!?!
My mind is just like a whirlwind... so much to think about... is this the right choice?? Am i wasting my resources (Capital VIT M!) Am i still resisting ?? Am i still in my own world?? What am i up to ??? The only diff i know is that i'm doing more stuff... taking more proactive actions. I guess tt's about it. Still so focused about ME. It's not changing ain't it !??!?! Am i not showing up???

What is wrong with me ?!!??!!? I take challenges on PPG, LS, CS... but really... i am trying hard for E... pls dun keep reminding me every single day... it is stressing me out !!!
As of now, all i wanna do is to focus on work... not think abt anything else for the moment... Avoiding again... (HA HA HA)

Ups and Downs

Pardon me if u dun understand my language... dun ask me wad it means either if u dun get it...
just not in a good mood and using this post as an avenue to release frustration.

Life is full of ups and downs... currently at my most DOWN time now for the week. E, PPG, LS... working well on PPG and LS. Maybe not tat well for PPG too.... out of 3, 2 are working... E for me is stressing the hell outta me. Other ppl are getting their E's. I am happy for them. It is worth celebration for i understand how difficult it is to even get 1 E. Happiness aside... yes i welcome challenges... but fear is getting all over me. Fear of the rejection, fear of losing that r/s. If it's to be, it's up to me ??? 100% possible all the time ??? My thinking caps are on again... it's the MM thingy ?? i dunch know. A thing is that i think the number of ppl around me are countable using my fingers and toes. Where am i with them ?? i dun wan them running away from me. Biggest rejection hit me. Kinda numb now... Keeping my mind occupied and not thinking abt it.

For a moment to ponder, i wonder what have i gotten myself into ?? Giving up is not an option although thoughts have hit me during this time. Perhaps i am still getting used to it. Not quite there yet. Notice i've been thinking so much that work is kinda getting affected. Something to look at... shall concentrate hard tmr...

So shagged... really so damn tired... how long will my body last ?!?!?!!?!??! It's not the number that i have to look at... but now... not even 1 is on the way. Damn it... WAKE UP MANZ !!!!

Ghost Town

Just last friday... 3 November 2006, we had a farewell lunch for one of my colleague.
Yup... she's no longer sitting in office... the senior who always helps me whenever i'm in doubt... although sometimes also got mood swings and will say... 自己看着办. lol

The office is so quiet now.... The new colleague that i have... we speculate that he ain't gonna be here for long. Although he sits next to me, unless i strike a conversation, he doesn't speak !!!! gosh...

Right now, my office pretty much a ghost town with ppl walking around but hardly any noise. LAughter is already so scarce... it's gonna be even worse !!! It's kinda demoralising when u see ur collegues leaving 1 by 1.... can't help but ponder... when will it be my turn ?!?!?!!?

I know... if it's up to be, it's up to me... 100% possible.... aiyah... but afterall i'm still human ma...
Relationships still have so much room for improvement... thanks to Narin for telling me a story last nite. Shall relate the story the next time.

What's next ??

Updating bloggie again... hehe... many have been asking me to UPDATE !!! =p

So AW advance journey came to an end... it was amazing... discovered more about myself... and have boldly taken the plunge to start on my LP (Leadership program) journey. So... WELCOME LP60 !!! Love my team.

It's now all about taking action and doing what it takes to get me to my goals. May not be big goals... but it still does take effort to take off ! In fact, i've got some pretty outreagous stuff up my sleeves during this LP journey... lolx... Open to everyone... If u have single guy friends... haha... intro to me can ??? Need some dates !!!! =p

Something that i learnt from my 1st wk of LP... time waits for no man. So much can be done in a week. Something which i have never experienced... forever wasting time... ZzZzzz There is so much to be accomplished that 24hrs a day is not enough. My mum thinks i look very tired. Shall take advice from my SGL... to rest early so that my parents wun be worried !!

It's my 2nd week into LP now... more stuff to get done... reach for my goals... with hte support of my SG, team, senior, my enroller and GLPs !!! Not a moment to waste !!! GO GO GO !!

p/s: i can't believe that i declared to read 2 chapters for my leadership study... and the 2 chapts are FREAKING LONG !!!!!!!!! *faint*