Where is the support when u need it most ??

I never realised once in my life that parental support was that important to me.

I have made a decision... but the support ain't there and that is why i have been so thinking so hard and so afraid that it's a wrong decision. But as i learnt from basic, it is my own choice and i have to be responsible for it. I should not be playing a victim role. I just feel something is missing and that i wouldn't be able to go for it 100%. =(

LAst nite, i talked to dad on the way home from class. I told him PT was ending soon and that i told Narin i had to choose btw PT and advance becoz i really have no $$$$. I have been hearing how powerful advance is and obviously PT is showing me fantastic results. So PT money has been well spent and i really mean it... Narin is a wonderful trainer! I told dad that i was gonna do advance... but i will miss trainings (i really do...). And his next sentence to me was "Give up ur asiaworks and go for trainings". What he makes me feel is that he is totally against asiaworks and would even be willing to continue paying for my trainings ??? WHY !?!?!?!

Perhaps i really do need to sit down with both mum and dad to know more... I dun wanna keep guessing. *sigh*

1 has gone... another going....

i yearn for the day when i bid my farewell...

it's hell-ish here... i miss the comfort days in AW training room...

i have been so tired lately that i can't even open my eyes to complete an episode of serial... maybe it's all the thinking that has worn me out...

i feel weak due to the flu bug... i hardly have strength for my weights...

i have made an agreement with some b****y person and i really hope it wasn't a rash one...

The only good news is... i've finally reached the 50's range for my weight.... ^_^ CHEERS !!!

16 Aug 06 - 20 Aug 06

Ming asked if i was gonna blog abt it... i told her NO... i thought i would have broken my agreement if i'd do so... but nope... i'm only sharing my OWN experience.

These five days have been indeed very special to me.
True and honest friends
Lotsa support
Super duper charasmatic SGL and fanastic SG (love them loads!!)
Time of reflection and thinking and realisation
All about ME
Rollar coaster journey
Sense of urgency
100% committment

I Love AW !!!! For more info ....please go to www.asiaworkstraining.com

AdVaNcEd !!!!!!!!! I WANT YOU !!!!!!!!

I BELIEVE I CAN FLY.... I BELIEVE I CAN TOUCH THE SKY !!!!!!!!

Intruder of McDland

back track abit... yes ming... i knwo i haven been updating... but neither have u !

anyway, intruder of McDland has finally left...

Disruption to the McD members lifestyle...

Intruder performed as and when she wished... intruder walked in and out of McDland as and when she wished too...

Intruder once didn't conform to McDland's uniform code....

Besides intruder's work attitude, she got along still ok with the McD members...

When intruder left, 1 of the McD burgers told small fries that intruder's abrupt departure caused frenzy and frustration for that burger and big mac.

Now that intruder has left, McDland's operations are back to normal once again...

New Look

Hehe... my dear ade and me after our haircut.. lolx

My hair looks a bit weird though... not as nice as after styling...

Ade's hairstyle cannot change much... hehe... coz she wanna keep long hair.. and herm.. ade.. ur hair actually really long le...

Haircut !!

Finally went for a haircut today after work. hee... it's been 2-3 months !!!
Wanted to cut during weekend... but my dear ade called today and said tonight go cut !!! lolx
Called mickey to check if he's in tonight... den make appt for both of us... coz my hair needed treatment !! esp my scalp... haihhz...
Both of us are hermm.... poor right now... coz heee.... my dear ade is going for asiaworks with me !! But today, we spent another bomb... juz haircut + treatment... shheeeeshhh... although expensive but i think quite worth it... coz my head is in a better condition (maybe just feeling better) and my hair looks cool ! Mickey cut my hair differently today and if i could do some styling, it will look as cool everyday. But as usual, my hair will only look good after visiting the stylist. After that, it will look the same again. *sadz*
Let's see wad i can do about it... anyway... it's only the beginning of hte month...and i feel broke again... my dear ade and i have upgraded from eating grass to eating dust !!! *hugz* We concluded that dust has less calories than grass... haahhaahaha.. we are mad !!!!!!

My unglam working space

This is the best overall pic i can take...haihhz....so narrow the space.....
It's after work and everyone has gone home except big mac and 1 manager.

Ok....it's so not personalised... not the way i wished my desk would be. But nobody decos their desk in my dept. The stingy office i work in only provides ONE blue pen ONE black pen ONE red pen ONE yellow highlighter ONE pencil ONE stapler ONE rusty hole puncher (the one at the corner) ONE faded keys calculator ONE eraser and TWO rulers. Well, whatever can been seen are actually ALL MINE. Pens, mechanical pencil, highlighters, the black hole puncher, water bottle, cup, mini radio (which is hardly switched on), tissue box, umbrellas and ohh...that 2 boxes on the left corner to keep some stuff properly. That's about it. The only personalised thing i have is my wallpaper... hahahaha.... that pic was taken by my aunt when they went to Alaska.... so envious...
The telephone just got changed not too long ago... so yeah... it's not the ancient brown telephone which i first had when i joined. The table is a bit cleared up... can be more messy during working hours. The thick ring file on the top.... sheesh... behind me are rows and rows and rows of such files. I am being surrounded by nothing else but papers, new and old dusty ones and files.... how depressing.