Dunch know wad to do

Hmm...just came back from finex-is meetivng. I really have my reserves and am having 2nd thoughts.
Gordon's a good trainer....this morning's session was interesting....he has made the impact, the punch...there's no doubts about him being the head of the company.
After that, we were spilt into our GMs for discussions respectively. This was the time when i felt so lost, so so lost. We were supposed to do a worksheet about how we could improve our sales. The managers (M & J) told me before i had to work hard in order to sow returns. I totally agree with that. But i dun think i am willing to sell my whole life there. My other team mates started doing their work proper to call up friends for FF and ask for referrals. The way J "scolded" them today was horrible. Her look kinda a bit bitchy too. On my team mates side, i definitely side with them coz we're all still new except for 3 of them la. It needs time and not everyone can have that positive mental attitude. I for now, think i wun be able to have a high score for positive attitude. She said they didn't do enough calls, not enough FF's. Sounded as if they are not working ? Well, i can't say whether they did work coz i didn't see. But i myself not very keen in going to the office all the time.
Friends....i dun think i have that many contacts...which is nto very good i guess. And from this girl's mouth, she said her contacts are working ppl and only have time to meet after working hrs. Or sometimes it's too late or tiring to meet. So meet on weekends...which ppl might not want to sacrifice. On this point, I am NOT WILLING to give up my weekends for work. To me, weekends are left for personal time, family time and even to go out with friends. And i'm sure my friends wouldn't wan to be listening to me talk and introduce services.
I don't think i can commit wholeheartedly. Money like Gordon said is a big issue. Only successful ones earn 16 times more than others. I'm not even a sales kinda person. Yes, money is important...but it's not everything. 钱不是万能，可是没有钱就万万不能。 This was something i learnt from cousin SY while she was here for 2 days.
Will cousin SY really help me ask David whether there's any job for me at Temasek ???? Hmm...
Mum asked me y'day if i really wanna juz give up my professional degree like that without even trying out audit. Hmm... the answer is i dun know... i guess i didn't wan to go into audit is becoz i dun have a solid background and also becoz there is a fear in me about not being able to do the work....*sighz*

SAMMI IS MY QUEEN FOREVER !!!!

dear Mi has been going online to SBS almost everyday and a few times daily. She replies to her fans....and that makes everyone she replied to very happy.
It is kinda like a dream come true where there is an avenue for us to communicate with Mi. No matter wad kind of msgs....my thoughts or something i want to say to her, i will juz post it up hoping that she will see it one day.
Mi has been replying to many at SC....even steph got a reply (we starting posting together... hoping to get Mi's attention) Some thought of giving up....i once had that thought too...but i didn't...i juz posted under one of the threads telling her how much i appreciate her and her music and movies. Didn't expect Mi to go back to that old thread to view...but she did and she FINALLY REPLIED TO ME !!!!! I didn't know until i went to SC to check where ripley or some other kind souls will cut and paste Mi's replies. Anyway, here is my reply =) Mi really made my day.....

Whenever Mi is online, the traffic at SBS is crazy...there's no way u can enter or even log in. Forum doesn't load at all....this juz shows how many fans Mi has. Guess even the HK doggies are there to keep track of Mi....especially after all the negative news like her having depression, cancer and the most atrocious one...being dead...geeezzz
I really hope to receive many more replies from dear Mi....=)

1st night in Waterina

Hmm...new mattress...a bit hard....it's a good and expensive mattress. But still not v used to it yet. Luckily i brought my pillows over too...the new ones are so hard and high....gosh...will get stiff neck !! All my piggies are here with me too...and actually, the first things i packed to bring were my precious CDs !!!! LoL....followed by clothes ...hahahahhaa... i have 1 poster with me...but i have no idea where i can put it up....my mum doesn't like my Sammi posters... but i LOVE them....it's so not my room without any of them up.
Can't enjoy my new room that much yet ....got to study for the sickening m9 on wednesday.. GGRRRRR....
Rando came to use the gym. LoL....he wanted to swim and sun tan..but it juz poured heavily... HAHAHAHA....so he juz used the gym for not even an hr...lol.... and i was juz sitting inside looking at him and this other girl who was running so fast and so long on the threadmill....*faintz*

1st Day officially in Waterina

Woke up early ....coz it's the day where we are officially shifting in to Waterina.
Superstitious, traditional....wadever u call it....
There was a heap of fruits in the car, fresh roses, a lamp, the rice container and our precious new cross.
Supposedly, before can enter the house, muz light up the lamp, bring in the fruits etc...So dad carried the lamp into hte house ....mum carried the HUGE bowl of fruits and the cross and i was juz standing outside. LoL....i dun knwo wad to to....hahahha....better make myself scarce. Then the FILLED to the BRIM rice container was brought in together with wadever else was outside the house. When everythign was in, i walked in. HAHAHAHA.....
Stepped in, granny said muz boil water. Electric kettle not enough...muz use the stove to boil...so out came the pot and onto the stove...then muz switch on the fan too....all she watched from HK TV....symbolise....风山水起....hope i used the right words...hahaha...
It was a lot of shiftin by car becoz we didn't get ppl to shfit our stuff yet ...so majority of the things are still in the old house =p
soon soon....everything will be brought over....

Last night at BRC

Hmm...here i am typing this in my room. My room of 12 yrs...the last night i'll be sitting and sleeping in tonight. =( Tmr 17th July 2005, supposedly the official day of shifting to Waterina. But not all furniture yet. LoL.
I haven't really packed my stuff. I'm taking my own sweet time since we're not selling/renting this place YET. I'll miss the space i have, the messy-ness of my room and everything else.
Waterina is done up nicely...mum is excited about staying there. I'm juz neutral. It's as if i'm treating it as some holiday place or like another hostel. But it's supposed to be home. Well, one day i'll get used to it i suppose.
I DUN WANNA MOVEEEEEEEE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Convocation 2005

13th July 2005....the date of my convocation when i put on my graduation gown. I have FINALLY finished the 3 yr Accountancy course in NTU. Not exactly smooth-sailing, but i had my share of work, projects, headaches, sleepless nights, exams, serials from zijia, ktv and badminton, dinners with my usual gang, fun and most importantly the friends i've made throughout the 3 yrs. Not forgetting to mention some visits by ming and binny occassionally.
Lotsa photo taking during that day. Walked till my legs went wobbly. Really appreciate ming and binny for coming down especially to take pics with me =) They really are my best pals after so many years =).
A very memorial day for me...for mum and dad too. But i didn't like the mortar board...made me look funny ....lol


Me

Dad, Me and Mum

Me, Ming, Binny and Ade

Group photo outisde the corridor of S4....where NBS is and the path i took almost everyday for hte past 3 yrs. Running and walking whenever i'm late =p

More pics at http://b0bble.multiply.com/photos/album/4

Updates for the past week

Friday
Went out with ming ming and binny to watch War of the Worlds...Me and ming went out earlier to buy tics...den binny came and we went Long John for lunch. I offered to buy for everyone...binny said want salad...so automatically of course i would think it's garden salad. Anyway, i ordered a coleslaw for myself. But in the end, binny's salad = coleslaw...then ok lor...i change with her....Still had at least 40 mins when we left LJ...coz it was tooo cold...BBbrrrrr
Walked to the sembawang CD shop lvl....got those machines....u put money and some toy comes out. Binny wanted the monkey....so in order for us to have a common item again, we "tong" $3 inside. And i got the ugly chicken i didn't want...HMPHHH
The movie...well, apparently, ming loves it ? and well, it was juz OK to me. Got scared by it . LoL...the effects blinding and deafening...i was cuddled up in my seat with my sweater and bag... parts where the aliens went after the humans were really horrifying !!!!

Saturday
Went for facial in the morning...hehe...get ready for convo ma...someone else did it for me. And during facial, somehow managed to persuade me to buy a mask from her. But when she called me confirm price on sunday, i somehow managed to say NO.
Haircut followed...also to prepare for convo...LoL...my hair was in a big mess. But the guy who did my hair...i think he thinned it too much...and my fringe looks weird...he slanted the wrong way -.-''''
Off to Waterina after that ....someone came to install our new TV. Hehe...nice TV....but i still think it's a bit too small....maybe not used to it yet.

Sunday
Got dug up early again...for BRUNCH -.-'''' Cousin KY treated us coz her mum came to visit. We spent the whole day together....brunch...den chinatown dessert den to Waterina to have a look. They went to parkway after that...but i stayed on with mum to watch TV and to do some cleaning. Haha..mum said i'm tall...HAHAHHAHA...coz i managed to reach the top of the glass door without the aid of a chair or ladder!!!
Dinner was at TM's Cartel with the uni ppl...Rando's birthday!!! My...the softest bday song i ever heard....haha...we didn't want to sing so loudly....paiseh la....HAPPY BIRTHDAY RANDO =)

Monday
Early morning again...this time is to PC for organisation meeting. 3 hours there....first half a bit not-related to me at all. Coz no training yet. They had appreciation session...say until the trainers that fantastic...the company that great...hmm...makes me ponder....i'll try it out myself ! The ppl there (100-200) seems to knwo everyone...are they that closely-knitted ? Found 1 of my accountancy classmate there too...and confirmed that my 2 managers are a couple. Tsk tsk...

Maple Story..Florina Beach

My 1st time at the beach...LoL...
Some pics i took....basically, my job was just to heal them coz i am not that strong to kill those monkeys and crabs...So, there i was clinging on the rope and healing whenever needed.


With the "Hawaii" girls...haha...oh the other mage is ming's friend...from SR too...haha...but i still dun knwo who he is =p


Killing in Action while b0bble hangs to her dear life on the rope


Posing under the clear blue sky


Finally can leave the horrible place....That's the boat back to lith...and here we are standing under coconut trees...LoL

Lastest News

23.53....i received an sms...
I can't be put thru the foundation training....coz i flunked...=p
This gives me time to really think thru since i can't join my peers for it anyway. Exam...i will delay it...anyway, i doubt i will have time to study so soon...shifting house in 2 wks time... everything still not packed up. LoL
Can i finally have some time at home w/o having to study ?? I just realised that i either am out buying stuff, shopping for the house....or if i'm at home...means study or have guests...

Went out for lunch with granny and ah yi today. Ate at TM's "ding tai feng". Not too bad la...but dun ever order their dried noodles....super saltish !!!! Yeahh...then we walked around...grandma bought stuff from NTUC, i went to Book Affairs to find magz...den we all went home. Oh...and i got lovely cherries from ah yi =) *yummy*
Came home, sat down and fell asleep...then 2 hrs later went out again for guitar. So long no lesson. A bit rusty even in reading notes... :S Miss Tey suggested that i should start taking exams...so that i'll bother to start practicing and improve....hehe...shall think about it. Music exams also stress la...but better than those that muz study like the stupid M5, HI and M9 which i took.
Speaking about M9, Marcus sms-ed me....tell me training starts tmr...hmm...even though i flunked M9, they still willing to accept me ??? Supposed to sign something again tmr...shall see what it is first ....READ CAREFULLY !!!! Even ah yi thinks i wun survive long there...she doesn't see hte persuasiveness in me...LoL...
A step at a time....meanwhile....flip more newspaper and lookout on the webbie....

Today i went to take the M9 exam....i flunked it. =(
I guess i didn't have enough time to prepare for it...coz my aunties came from Penang, and it was dinner with them everyday !! and that's how my nights jsut went by. Anyway, that's not supposed to be a good excuse. But i did practice the calculations !! hmm...i wonder what happened...maybe i got sick of the exam...125 qns in 2 1/2 hrs...i couldn't concentrate halfway. Maybe not enough sleep ???
It suddenly struck me if this is a test that God is trying to put me thru. Coz if i dun pass M9, i wouldn't be able to be licensed. Y'day in church, i said my prayers hoping that dear Father would show me my route. I think He is trying to make me think.
My grpmate... Mei...she flunked HI and didn't turn up for today's M9. Paid $264 for only 1 M5 cert. hmm...looks like she's determined to draw a line btw her and PC.
Talked to ade and steph just now. Both of whom i haven't spoke over msn for a long time !!!! Had fun gossiping and talking nonsense...LoL Ade told me that i'd have to think thru about PC but not think too hard... I think i've been thinking VERY HARD. Even ade thinks i'm not a sales-type of person. It's only ade that could relate to me selling bash tix last time...LoL...i forgot all about it.
Well, not gonna think about it anymore...MS time with Ming and then to sleep !!!

Positive Comment

The 1st ever positive comment i got from my cousin KY regarding FAR.
She told me it was good...worthwhile trying....can be useful for myself too. Anything i dun know can ask her...
Hmm...maybe it's becoz she's also in the investment line...but she's a high-flyer. Smart cousin of mine....
But i'm thankful for the encouraging words she gave me...Thanks a lot !!! =)

Confused...

PC asked me to sign an agreement. I was hesistant...i tried to reject....but was cornerned in a room by the 2 managers and was coaxed....which also meant, i signed in the end to become their representative.
First of all, i dun know wad kind of job i am really looking for. I only know that i didn't really enjoy the accountancy program....so does that mean audit is out for me ?? Do i really have to find a job related to wad i studied? Money is definitely 1 wad every new grad hopes to find i suppose....not a generalisation...juz wad i feel.
Along came PC, called me for interview...and i didn't even know wad it was about. Everyone told me to go and not to be lazy. I managed to shake off the AIA guy. Now i'm in this. It's similar yet different. I believe PC i should be able to learn more stuff. They told me they had a stringent selection process...and i am selected coz they think i have potential. But everyone i spoke to or asked dun think i'm suited to be a FAR.
My parents want me to find a job ASAP. Others tell me to take my time. I am pretty scared now. The training starts soon. But luckily termination is juz 14 days notice. I'm still looking out for others. I know mum thinks this isn't an ideal job. Perhaps, i think this way too. Besides my close friends, i dare not tell others yet. When ppl ask if i've found a job, my mum tells them still looking. I wonder if being FAR is that terrible.
Just now my cousin asked me to, i said i had an offer with PC...and the look they gave me wasn't very encouraging though. She said something like ...oh..sell... Come on...i haven't even started.
The managers said i shouldn't bother how ppl look at me or i'd be labelled forever. But i already feel laballed. What did i get myself into ???
Will a better job pls be available for me ??? Oh dear god...pls enlighten me on my direction...i'm lost...