Reflections of 2006

Ushering the new year in a few days time...
2006... how has it been for me ???

2006... have been working with FKT for 1 year. Work wise, getting bored... collegues, they come and go (go more than come =_=). 2007 will be time to move on... move to where?? shall just leave it to where HE has planned for me to go.

2006... started going to cali fitness... trained under Narin for almost hmm... 9 months already... as of now, weight loss about 11-12kg. Great results but still working on it. A personal trainer turned good friend... someone whom i treasure and love loads !! Most imptly, my enroller into AW !! =)

2006... joined AW trainings... august basic (SB61), october advanced (SA61), october LP60. Still walking thru LP now but more than 1/2 way thru it. A training which i would love to see all my dear friends and loved ones go thru. So much value gained, unmeasurable benefits. Bringing awareness to myself, appreciating r/s even more, understanding wad contribution, trust, support really means, a bunch of fantasic team mates and friends, wonderful seniors and SGLs to bring me closer to my goals. There's so much to say abt this... but yeah.. that's pretty much a summary. Would luv to share more... =)

So much for good news... with gd news, there's always bad news as well. Ups and downs are inevitable. As people say, life's a game of a rollar coaster ride. Won't be dwelling on the not so gd news... But all i can say is that, it's part of my life and i have to face it and deal with it. Support is around me and i appreciate them. Really... thanks to all my dear friends... esp LP60 =)

Resolution for 2007... shall think abt it...

It's SHIOK to GIVE !!!!

That's our theme for LP 60's WOW Day !!!!
It was a great damn success !!!! Woohooo ~~ LP60 rocks the city !!!!
Feedback that our WOW Day was 1 of the best... well organised and with substance !!!!
It was hard work for the past 6 weeks...but looking at the children and elderly enjoying themselves to the fullest, it was all worthwhile.... SHIOK !!!!
Thank all who supported and contributed in any way for our SHIOK DAY !!! LP60 raised $24k for the beneficiaries.

2 scenarios that touched me the most yesterday:

1) Elderly... this lady from TP centre she speaks to herself. Prob she's really lonely in her 1-room flat. During the buffet lunch, she stacked her plate mountain high. She gorged herself with food even though she looked as if she had enough. She continued forcing herself to eat. It looked pretty bad. She gave me an impression of "i have to eat more now coz i may not have dinner." Gosh, it was heart wrenching. And when we gave the elderly their gifts, an ang pao of $200 and a really heavy goodie bag, the look in their eyes was unforgettable! This lady, i feel she just thought the ang pao was just like $10 or less. When she saw the 1st $50 note, she was in for a big surprise. But when she saw that it wasn't only 1 piece, she was in awe! She counted the 4 pieces over a few times before finally keeping it safely. My SGL said, the $200 could well be their livelihood for 2 months !!!

2) 2 kids.. both sisters. Met them during my Community service (CS) on saturdays during my reading sessions with the kids. Took charge of them. Naughty as they could be. But so adorable. How happy they could be participating in our activties, having a nice lunch and ice-cream for dessert. Even more so when they collected their pressies from our Mr Santa Clause. How happy they looked. And when they left, i went up the bus to look for them! Huge smiles on every kid's face =) The 2 sisters looked at me...and said..."See u next wk at class !!" OMG... it was f*cking heart warming. Just the day before, the r/s we had was not this way. It was really a big WOW to have created such a memorable event just for them and for LP60 and our volunteers.

Inspiring LP60. Creating a fantastic event! A Very sucessful WOW Day. An unforgettable moment for me. i LOVE LP60 !!!! LP60 ROCKS THE CITY !!!

What the f*ck

oh what the f*ck is going on ??? So i'm also a person full of bullshit. How interesting.

So damn bloody busy yesterday... doing stuff which i ain't my job. Helping out again.
I know time is impt and that agreements are impt. But where work is concerned, what am i supposed to do? I can't be leaving my undone stuff aside just to fulfill my personal goals ?? I am a victim of work?

LP is a game of life. That's wad all GLPs say. Things always happen during LP. what the f*ckkk... the things happening in MY LIFE ain't glamourous to be announced. Losing relationships around me... They tell me take only 5 mins to dwell and have wadever emotions and then move on. Fucking hell... 5 mins to heal a more than 5 yrs or even 10 yrs or even a lifetime r/s ??? Rubbish.

Be strong. Stand strong. Sounds f*cking easy huh... That's a damn f*cking mask i'm having now. And wad i'm supposed to BE is AUTHENTIC. wad a joke.

Joshua Kadison - Beautiful In My Eyes

My advance contract song =)

Feelings...

The past week has been a huge rollar coaster for me.

There were times when i was at my peak and times when i was right deep down in the valley... happy, sad, excited, anger, anxiety, worried, fun, fear, wadever u name it, i believe i would have experienced it. That's part of life and it all depends on how i embrace it.

Just taking yday for e.g. the day was worth a million. I daringly say i went 100% but whether it was reciprocated, i really dun know. I still do not understand why my dear fren would wish i was the person way before 3-4 months ago. I would say, i am still the person i am. I may not be the perfect being right now. But i am improving myself everyday, learning new stuff, experiencing new things, pushing myself forward, creating new results.
Why wait to create more results?? Why wait till it's too late to appreciate and embrace wad u have and acknowledge urself? I dun understand... really dun... *sigh*