Some updates

Doesn't matter if anyone still reads my blog...but it does help me remember stuff and sometimes aids my thinking process...LoL

Last Friday, i called mgr M to inform him that i'm thinking of not continuing anymore. He's the not so pushy one... the Mr Nice Guy(???) Apparently, i have mistunderstood everything. But the only think i'm certain is that...it's still sales. Well, he told me to still go down for organisation meeting on monday and after that talk face to face with me together with mgr J and maybe the director. My heart sank upon hearing talking to J. She's the more forceful and the one who's good at talking. It's scary talking to her...feel so pressurized...cornered in a room...being brainwashed....haihhhz

Monday...so i went for the org meeting. Reached earlier hoping to find a good chair and spot. Put down my bag and jacket, prepared to sit down when M&J saw me and asked me go into a room to talk. only 15 mins before also cannot let go...haihhz....so juz 15mins...nothing much talked about also. Just asked me to go thru training first and find out a bit more...and talk to the other newbies on the team to find out how they feel and how they're getting on.
Meeting went on...and my seat was taken by someone...had to sit on this shakey chair...and it was so damn bloody hot. Worst org meeting i ever went for. But it was as if the meeting was tailored for me ??? the trainer went thru the process for meeting clients and the investment portion. But i was still determined not to get moved.
Meeting ended early, but i was stuck in the room with M&J from 11.45 till 2 something. Initially, only M spoke to me....told him honestly i was looking for other jobs and that sales is not something i'm interested in. Then he told me this is indirect sales.....wadever la....it's still sales. Then went on saying that being in this career has changed him...he is speaks differently from his peers who are accountants etc... -.-'''
After a while, J came in....once she started talking, i juz kept quiet most of the time... not wanting to say something wrong and step into a pit. She told me she doesn't see me as an admin officer....and asked me what audit could do for me. I just said din wan waste my degree.... Then asked me about my career objectives etc... and said she could see that i've been a very negative person all along without much confidence... Hmm...actually, i do see that in myself since uni...i wasn't like that in JC....i wonder why....
So the talking went on....telling me that this career will enable me to see personal growth, learn communication skills etc... Also told me that the fact i'm seated there thinking shows that i have not given up -.-''''' Then went on telling me that the file for no of ppl they rejected is almost 2-3 times thicker than hte file with those they accepted....kinda reverse psychology telling me how good i am ??? LoL.... but i still kinda persisted.
Oh....and i mentioned how the others seem to know so much...and they understood i felt left out etc...and also said this other girl doesn't knwo anything like me, but she took the initiative to go back to office to ask for the other team mates notes etc....implying i got no initiative lor. No interest, how to have initiative leh ??? -.-'''''
Anyway, the bottom line is ....go for the preliminary training which is FOC for me....and cost ppl in other countires ...$2588...shall see how good it is....they want me to go with an open mind... and learn...which i obviously will....and find out that it's not all about sales and insurance.This is an FA career....dealing with insurance, investments, loans and savings. Sounds a bit more attractive that insurance agent hor...BUT I WILL STILL HAVE MY RESERVES. Say byebye end of 2 wks ?? maybe...

Will update more after today's training session....esp for my dear friends who are intersted in wad's going on...
p/s: my dear friends..if got any perm job lobang....pls msg me !!! =)