WaDZz Up... LoViNg, TrUsTinG & BeAuTiFuL....

2007-02-20T19:32:00.000+08:00

http://hk.myblog.yahoo.com/b0bble-life

New blog @ Yahoo....

Still at the testing stage... heehee... cute emoticons... but only setback... all in chinese >.<

Contributing after LP

2007-02-16T00:56:00.000+08:00

Back at AW again this evening... Narin asked me to support her for cash team @ tonight's guest event ! Ever-willing to go back to the training room again ^_^

Was excited... even more so when i heard some of my LP60 mates would be there !! Mini-gathering for some of us... heeee =) Love this bunch of ppl to bits. They are those who have seen almost every side of me... and i can just let go and be myself ! No image ya !!! ^_^

First time doing cash team... heee.... learnt how to swap credit cards !! woohooo~~ Am so gonna try other roles =) Ppl may not understand why we go back to contribute or to go back staffing the trainings etc.. all they might think is... "wahh.. free labour !" Well... there's always a reason and a purpose for us to go back la.. where got so good free labour leh ??

I like going back into training rooms... i love to see the ppl all energised and charged up abt their own goals and dreams.. hehe.. beautiful !

My dear "granny" had craving for prata and somehow all the 'givers' for the night got enrolled and we had prata !!! LOL... sitting beside Narin (my trainer) i was piggin' out !!! LOL... well, she's leavin' cali soon... i gotta finish up all my sessions ASAP !! slim slim !! I WAN !!! HAHAHA

HAd a great evening last nite !!! ^_^

My Diva is back !!!!

2007-02-15T10:27:00.000+08:00

All refreshed and back in power !!!! Mi @ Vancouver ^_^
Love her hair !! But haha.. nope.. she didn't cut it la... but i wish she did =p heheee.. other fans would prob just kill me... but i really love her in stylish short hair !! Just like in the early years... 1996 onwards.... =)

2007-02-14T12:37:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's/ Friendship Day to Everyone !!!

Haha.. nope... i still dun have a valentine...

Just received a sms... tonight's guitar lesson cancelled... hmm...

I dun wanna be "involved" in work tonight !!!! NO NO NO !!! T-T

Shall pretend i still have lesson and leave before 7pm... hehehheee...

In the meanwhile... if anyone knows of any marketing-related entree job opening, pls do let me know !!!! DESPERATE !!!! ^_^

2007-02-14T01:13:00.000+08:00

So dull... so boring .... that's work life... it's soooooo sad that i stayed back till 8.15pm today. Sianz.. all the audit files are disappearing... i have to be quick to either photocopy or finish them. Prioritising work again. Every client wants their stuff fast. I also wan finish fast lor... really cannot tahanz liaoz...
Actually did another post during office hrs... so sick and tired... but then hor... haven write finish i think... lolx.. maybe continue tmr.... *yawnz*
Have been soooo tired and drained out. Even if i'm back home "early" i fall asleep on the sofa soo easily... even after a short nap... i am still sooooo freakin' tired. But since i jsut took my shower, feelin' a bit more refreshed... tt's why i'm surfing... in fact was thinkin' of doing some work again... but WTF ... enough...
Decided that i needed some happy pictures... but hmm... i have nothing new in my own picture folder... not transferred from cam yet... Found this cute pic from yahoo... haha.. imagine everything in the fridge smiles... hehe...
Actually when i searched for happy... lotsa a baby photos were found. Makes me wonder if a person will only be happy when he/she is a baby... But i dun think so ! I recall my estatic and happy moments with my LP60, when i m out ktv-ing with frens, crapping etc... heheee... see how impt my frens are.... ^_^

I just love bloggin'

2007-02-13T10:44:00.000+08:00

Well... regardless of whether there are any readers...

This is my only avenue for my grumbles and rumbles and wadevers coz dunch think anyone will know wad i'm going thru... or perhaps ppl might be bored of wad i rattle all the time.

I realised i got so many delinquent clients... and i really hate them. When u ask for stuff, they dun do it... once they give u stuff, they expect u to do IMMEDIATELY. Really what the f*** lorrr... but wad to do... service provider... customer always correct ?? Maybe as mum said, i m really more suited for govt sector jobs.. hmm... i dun have a biz mind... how sad =(

2007-02-13T09:20:00.000+08:00

Unexpected... i bought another pair of shoes... a bit pricey... but it's nice.. (at least to me la... haha) Only dun have sleeping clothes now... hmmm.... why nid so many new things for CNY ah?? No $$$ lehh...

Tired today... if xiao suen reads this, she'll prob say... everyday also tired la.. hahaha... tt's pretty true... but i feel more lethargic than yday! Why like that leh?? Maybe coz slept a bit late... coz had late late dinner due to the unintended shopping. Mum only wanted to collect her lucky draw prize... a table for 10 @ The Regent Summer Palace for reunion dinner ^_^ It's our 1st time getting such a great prize for lucky draw !!!! =) So happy !! hehehe...

YEah... @ work again... i got a few back log cases... clients asking how come now then do... omg... haihhz... if i only have my own portfolio to work on.. without those nonsensical calls... prob i'd have finished them. But then again, might just be my excuses once again... i only know that i'm tired of the work here... But i have no energy to flip the papers !!! So tired.. really... no idea wad i'm doing also... leave also nid give 1 month notice.. but no job, i cannot leave. Suppose i have to really work hard during CNY... =(

2007-02-12T10:54:00.000+08:00

How helpful can ur colleagues be ??

Everyone is just tryin' to push duties away. WTF !!!!

Pretty pissed off ... really... Not my portfolio, i also have to take le... cannot grumble... grievance will never be heard off... just 1 company... and the blardy colleague have to throw it back to me. Trust me to offer breakfast service whenever i go get my coffee. I shall jolly well just think of myself manz... how do u expect me to CARE for others when others just CARE FOR THEMSELVES. Not reciprocal at all... WTF !!!! Now even hearing that person's voice irks me !!! geeeezzzzz

Didn't flip recruit the past wkend... have to do some catching up !!!! ARRGHHZZ !!!

2007-02-12T09:49:00.000+08:00

The weekend is gone again... How depressing... So fast... it just goes by so quickly... =(

Saturday... woke up pretty late... walked ard in the house... put up some CNY deco at home... had lunch, auntie LL came to visit with loads of organic food.. >.< and off i went for sax class. Music... i just love music... i really have no idea wad i'll be like if music weren't a part of my life. Anyway, my teacher said this "i know nowadays ppl dun really celebrate CNY... so u shld have more time to practice -.-''' Take this STACK of music sheets home and practice... it's like a test for lvl 1... " Thanks man... saying my CNY so no life and it's really a STACK of papers lor... =.=''' But i'll do something abt it... heeeee

Highlight of Saturday nite was LP60's gathering @ Lawerence Ng's music studio. Miss everyone sooooooo freakin' much !! It was a nite of fun and craziness. Lotsa of hidden talent around... hahaha... classics, english songs, hokkien, canto, mand... lol.. u name it, we had it !!! Lotsa snacks and drinks and alcohol... there were some marinating their kidneys with alcohol... hahahaa... Gosh.. we must have this again soon !!! Even our coach Scott came !! ^_^ More gatherings to come !!!!!! lolx

Sunday... woke up late again.. haha... well.. tried doing some WORK (-.-''') and lunch and more WORK (=.=''') and then we went out to PArkway. Intention = Get a new phone for mum. She doesn't wanna spend much... but yet i dun wan her to get those 0 value or old old phone.. hmm.. but the queue was crazy... 24 ppl in front of us and waiting time approx 1 1/2 - 2 hrs... madness. Anyway, didn't get it coz had to rush off for advance grad =) But i thought of the k800i !! any other suggestions ?? hmm....

Short time @ AW for Fer's and Poojah's grad.. heee... reminds me of my own grad... heeee... time flies manz... it's like 4 months ago ?? O.o But it's a gd time to meet up with ppl as well... haha.. saw Irene there =) Met my buddy ^_^ Mabel, Joyce, Grace were there too !! heee....

Another 6 days to CNY... busy busy... Now @ work.. so sianz...

Shopping !!

2007-02-09T09:44:00.000+08:00

Haha... ever since i've shed some weight, i've been enjoying shopping !!
It's a joy when i can finally fit into some nice clothes... and no nid to search for sizes like XL or XXL or XXL or i dun know how many Xs L !!!! =p

Yesterday evening, mum and i were supposed to go to Chinatown to get CNY stuff... headed to Raffles City first. Spent quite a lot of time there.. hahaha... browse browse browse... lolx... Mum got good buy for her pair of shoes !! last time asked her to buy, it cost $99 and of course she refused to buy... last nite... same pair, same brand... $49 !!! how to not buy leh ?? tsk tsk....

Chinatown wasn't that crowded.. but prices of some stuff have gone up !! Only another 8 days away to CNY... hee... bought some really cute piggie decorations. Manz.. pigs r soooo adorable !!! hahahha.... *winkz* So many things to see, so many things to buy.. hehe... food, decos, clothes, plants...i wanna go back again !!! Only spent abt 2-3 hrs there... The BIGGEST surprise buy was the chinese top i bought !!! LOL... haven't had anything like this since primary skool !! hahaha.. i'm so sure that my granny will be amazed and will LOVE my red top to bits !!! Well, of course well only during CNY la.. hahah... $22 for it ... quite reasonable... Not bad la.. i can fit into M now... lolx....

I wanna go shopping again !! 1 more pair of shoes at least.. heee...

2007-02-07T09:12:00.000+08:00

Hmm... CNY coming le...

Preparations for CNY... not much done yet... i know i have to spring clean my room badly... =p New clothes... kinda have the necessary... but doesn't harm to have more rite ?? HAHAA... it's the 1st time i actually go hunt for nicer-looking clothes =p *shyz*

No baking of any goodies this year... no energy and no mood to do so... i miss my mum' s pineapple tarts though... *sigh*

I wonder wad's in for CNY this time round... oh yeah... it's the year of hte piggie again... that is my year... haha.. my zodiac sign at least =p Good luck ?? Golden piggie year ?? i certainly hope so. I recall having career talks by my uncle every year... and i never looked fwd to them. But surprisingly, i'm kinda looking fwd to it this time round. Haha.. hoping to hear some good news to find out wad's available for me!!!

Haven't been to Chinatown yet leh... haven't felt the atmosphere. Just that every shop along hte road is playing those CNY songs.. arrghzz... As buddy and i were discussing.. haha... it does get on my nerves...lol.. coz hor... the shop so high class... y muz play those "ohbiang" songs leh ?? lolx. Should be making my way down tmr evening with mum ^_^ Let's see wad we can find there... heeeee

Oh... and i suppose i have more time to update my bloggie from now onwards... heee ^_^

2007-02-06T00:06:00.000+08:00

Me, Kelly C, Cara, Gina, Susanna !
KawaBunGaZ !!!
GLP60 !!!
JuGGerNAuTs
2nd Wow Day with IMH patients =) Tay is amazing !!!
Me and Ming ming ^_^
Purple Group ! Buddy's group.. heee
Everybody getting ready for grp photo !!
My green team !! =)

GLP !!!!

2007-02-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

Haha... i meant to post this last monday while i was on leave... but then... haha... too lazy !

LP journey has ended .... we are now GLP60 !!! woohooo~~

Life has been relaxing after work hours... no more coaching calls to make.. hee.. less stress =p

My LP journey has been amazing !!! Yes... there are many ups and downs... well, that's coz it's the game of life !!! I love my LP60. The bond that we've created... the times we shared... nobody has ever seen the all of me... i.e. the laughter, the cries, the happiness, the sorrow, excitment, acheivements... really EVERYTHING !!! All of which is deeply engraved in my memory. Everlasting memories are all that LP60 has given me =)

Do i miss LP life ?? Haha... all my seniors say i would !!! YEah... i do miss times when everyone is hot on heels trying to "chiong" all the way to achieve goals and support each other. But.. hee... no more coaching calls... finally got time to watch tv... finally got time to slack at home and RELAKK !!!! lolx... The weird thing is that... i am still stressed out during work hrs.. but after that, buddy and i go .. "so tonight doing wad leh??" and both will answer "nothing leh"... lolx... During LP, every nite was either SGM, gym la, classes la, dates la... wadever.. there was hardly a nite when u ask the same question and get the same answer... lolx... 3 months passed... busy but fulfilling.

Am only giving myself 1 more week to relakk... hahaha... not that i'm gonna play LP again.. (NO WAY !!) but it's time to start moving on again !! Still remember how good it felt when i was performing my saxphone piece during our LP60 concert... (well, i just realised my techniques weren't quite right...but who cares !! i performed the sax !!) My 1st time playing hte keyboard and guitar for ppl to sing-a-long... and last min too... no practice !!! sight reading !! lolx... Am gonna start mm-ing abt new goals for myself.. heee

Went back for training on sunday morning....>.< Haven't been for PT for 2 wks... coz i was sick !!! *sigh* now my legs dun feel as if they are mine !!! Achy achy achy !!! geeee Narin's gonna quit... sad to see my trainer go... and i am committed that i wun sign on with any other trainer !! All the additional sign-ons were becoz of Narin.. heee... she's good ma. But we're pretty good frens too !!! My entire wkend was spent with her... haha... Sat after sax class... roamed aimlessly and my legs just brought me to Bugis.. the usual routine. But i had NO PT !!! lolx.. went to say HELLO and ended up with coffee and dinner and Bugis village walk. Sunday training @ 9am.. (hell... haven't woke up at 7am since LP ended on a wkend !). She bought me breakfast only to torture me after that. LOL... she cancelled the other clients after 12pm. We went for lunch and more shopping and gossip and sinful food !!! HAHAHA... fun fun fun !!! Love ya babe !!!

Well, the 1 goal i have already set for myself is that... i'm gonna leave and get a new job before that watermelon gets back to office !! Narin asked why so long... perhaps i'm just giving myself a backdoor ahh... ARRGHHZ !!! Job search started... heeeee but first... resume nids some touch up !!!

2007-01-23T14:34:00.000+08:00

Another change in my life...

1 of my managers just dropped the news that she's pregnant. Congrats !!!
But the bad news is... she's on medical leave from now till end September. Wow... I dun konw whether to rejoice or cry.

What am i gonna do with all my portfolio under her? Another colleague of mine told me..."just do ur best, everyone is trying to survive, including the big boss". I was told to go directly to big boss for anything under this portfolio until further notice.

So many stuff on hand now... i've backlog quite a fair bit. Trying to catch up now. But i feel lost. Only 1 yr experience and now i have to handle stuff on MY own ?? *stress* Anything wrong, i take the reponsibility ??? *double stress* Before she goes off, she says... "bye guys.. have fun" =.=

Makes me wanna go even more !!! Doesn't seem nice to do that when all trying to survive... but then again, if i dun think for myself, who will help me??

So many things to handle... things at home...(getting blamed for no reason, having comments like i'm not dependable... wow... really helps manz!) and now this at work... What other bombs coming my way ?!?!?!?!?!??!

WHERE HAVE U GONE !??!?!

2007-01-17T17:42:00.000+08:00

Yup... this qn is directed at MYSELF. WHERE HAVE I BEEN ALL THESE WHILE ???

My energy is back =) 2 more buddies with me.. Now i have Ade, Caroline and my kitty Kitson =) Caroline somehow managed to kick me so hard that I AM ALIVE !!!! High high high... i lurve u guys so much !!!!

Not many days left... a part of me wants it to end so badly... so that i can finally have some good sleep. But i feel very strongly for LP60. My wonderful legacy team. The bond that i feel. The care and support they have given me. Love them so much !! Just when i feel that i'm being "ignored" at home... i know i can turn to LP60. Someone will always be there for me. I really want this bond to continue growing even though we end our journey.

I will stand for my team to win. I wan my team to win, I wan my friends and love ones to win too. Hey people... reach for your dreams and goals... go for them !!! Take charge and get them going !! Dun wanna live in regret i'm sure !!!

2007 Resolutions

2007-01-03T17:34:00.000+08:00

Long term goals

Spend quality time with my family and dear friends
Be pro-active in searching for a new job
Losing the unsightly spare tyre (just a bit more to go... arghhzz)
Be able to play the saxophone properly
Clean up my room.

Short term goals:

Play LP 100%
Complete all the lagging blardy tax computations
Short term or long term = get out of this company !!!!!!!!!!!

Great times in 2006

2007-01-02T10:28:00.000+08:00

The journey of awareness, goals and dreams

2007-01-02T09:42:00.000+08:00

One of the fun days in 2006

2007-01-01T11:15:00.000+08:00

Reflections of 2006

2006-12-26T16:07:00.001+08:00

Ushering the new year in a few days time...
2006... how has it been for me ???

2006... have been working with FKT for 1 year. Work wise, getting bored... collegues, they come and go (go more than come =_=). 2007 will be time to move on... move to where?? shall just leave it to where HE has planned for me to go.

2006... started going to cali fitness... trained under Narin for almost hmm... 9 months already... as of now, weight loss about 11-12kg. Great results but still working on it. A personal trainer turned good friend... someone whom i treasure and love loads !! Most imptly, my enroller into AW !! =)

2006... joined AW trainings... august basic (SB61), october advanced (SA61), october LP60. Still walking thru LP now but more than 1/2 way thru it. A training which i would love to see all my dear friends and loved ones go thru. So much value gained, unmeasurable benefits. Bringing awareness to myself, appreciating r/s even more, understanding wad contribution, trust, support really means, a bunch of fantasic team mates and friends, wonderful seniors and SGLs to bring me closer to my goals. There's so much to say abt this... but yeah.. that's pretty much a summary. Would luv to share more... =)

So much for good news... with gd news, there's always bad news as well. Ups and downs are inevitable. As people say, life's a game of a rollar coaster ride. Won't be dwelling on the not so gd news... But all i can say is that, it's part of my life and i have to face it and deal with it. Support is around me and i appreciate them. Really... thanks to all my dear friends... esp LP60 =)

Resolution for 2007... shall think abt it...

2006-12-12T02:23:00.000+08:00

It's SHIOK to GIVE !!!!

2006-12-11T09:09:00.000+08:00

That's our theme for LP 60's WOW Day !!!!
It was a great damn success !!!! Woohooo ~~ LP60 rocks the city !!!!
Feedback that our WOW Day was 1 of the best... well organised and with substance !!!!
It was hard work for the past 6 weeks...but looking at the children and elderly enjoying themselves to the fullest, it was all worthwhile.... SHIOK !!!!
Thank all who supported and contributed in any way for our SHIOK DAY !!! LP60 raised $24k for the beneficiaries.

2 scenarios that touched me the most yesterday:

1) Elderly... this lady from TP centre she speaks to herself. Prob she's really lonely in her 1-room flat. During the buffet lunch, she stacked her plate mountain high. She gorged herself with food even though she looked as if she had enough. She continued forcing herself to eat. It looked pretty bad. She gave me an impression of "i have to eat more now coz i may not have dinner." Gosh, it was heart wrenching. And when we gave the elderly their gifts, an ang pao of $200 and a really heavy goodie bag, the look in their eyes was unforgettable! This lady, i feel she just thought the ang pao was just like $10 or less. When she saw the 1st $50 note, she was in for a big surprise. But when she saw that it wasn't only 1 piece, she was in awe! She counted the 4 pieces over a few times before finally keeping it safely. My SGL said, the $200 could well be their livelihood for 2 months !!!

2) 2 kids.. both sisters. Met them during my Community service (CS) on saturdays during my reading sessions with the kids. Took charge of them. Naughty as they could be. But so adorable. How happy they could be participating in our activties, having a nice lunch and ice-cream for dessert. Even more so when they collected their pressies from our Mr Santa Clause. How happy they looked. And when they left, i went up the bus to look for them! Huge smiles on every kid's face =) The 2 sisters looked at me...and said..."See u next wk at class !!" OMG... it was f*cking heart warming. Just the day before, the r/s we had was not this way. It was really a big WOW to have created such a memorable event just for them and for LP60 and our volunteers.

Inspiring LP60. Creating a fantastic event! A Very sucessful WOW Day. An unforgettable moment for me. i LOVE LP60 !!!! LP60 ROCKS THE CITY !!!

What the f*ck

2006-12-06T09:30:00.000+08:00

oh what the f*ck is going on ??? So i'm also a person full of bullshit. How interesting.

So damn bloody busy yesterday... doing stuff which i ain't my job. Helping out again.
I know time is impt and that agreements are impt. But where work is concerned, what am i supposed to do? I can't be leaving my undone stuff aside just to fulfill my personal goals ?? I am a victim of work?

LP is a game of life. That's wad all GLPs say. Things always happen during LP. what the f*ckkk... the things happening in MY LIFE ain't glamourous to be announced. Losing relationships around me... They tell me take only 5 mins to dwell and have wadever emotions and then move on. Fucking hell... 5 mins to heal a more than 5 yrs or even 10 yrs or even a lifetime r/s ??? Rubbish.

Be strong. Stand strong. Sounds f*cking easy huh... That's a damn f*cking mask i'm having now. And wad i'm supposed to BE is AUTHENTIC. wad a joke.

Joshua Kadison - Beautiful In My Eyes

2006-12-05T12:55:00.001+08:00

My advance contract song =)

Feelings...

2006-12-04T09:50:00.000+08:00

The past week has been a huge rollar coaster for me.

There were times when i was at my peak and times when i was right deep down in the valley... happy, sad, excited, anger, anxiety, worried, fun, fear, wadever u name it, i believe i would have experienced it. That's part of life and it all depends on how i embrace it.

Just taking yday for e.g. the day was worth a million. I daringly say i went 100% but whether it was reciprocated, i really dun know. I still do not understand why my dear fren would wish i was the person way before 3-4 months ago. I would say, i am still the person i am. I may not be the perfect being right now. But i am improving myself everyday, learning new stuff, experiencing new things, pushing myself forward, creating new results.
Why wait to create more results?? Why wait till it's too late to appreciate and embrace wad u have and acknowledge urself? I dun understand... really dun... *sigh*

2006-11-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

Just when u never expected something to happen and it does, my experience is that whatever comfort zone that i am in just crashes down on me.

All i can say now is to really really cherish and appreciate everything around me regardless the length of time. I am very very very thankful that Narin has brought me into AW and made me realise and be aware of all my precious gifts. It is really time for me to show up and really be the person i am. I will be strong and supportive and live my contract !

What's not working???

2006-11-23T17:06:00.000+08:00

Realised that work efficiency is dropping once again.

I know it's distraction from LP stuff... and i think i've really lost interest and things here are not exciting me anymore. Signs that i should move on... Stop procrastinating and TAKE ACTION !!!!

Slow slow slow... geezzz... wad on earth am i doing ?? Really cannot take it... 1 year is up in 1 wks time and i should proli be moving elsewhere.... so what am i waiting for ?? WHAT DO I WANT ?!!?!?

SINGLES' NITE PARTY

2006-11-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

Hey dudes !!!! Annoucing a Singles' Nite Party !!!!

Pls come down and bring ur friends along !!! More details in the pic below....

Dress code: smart casual

Please help spread the word !!!!! Thanks a million guys !!!!!

Chrissy is boreddd...

2006-11-15T12:24:00.000+08:00

Chrissy is @ work.

But Chrissy is feeling boreddd.... lolx... (frequent chatters on msn/gmail will wonder... since when am i ever NOT bored... tsk tsk)

Can't help but wonder why ppl can stay in this office for 9-10 yrs... but recently more ppl going off la... i nid to buck up manz... wan to move means quickily move... gonna be 1 yr anniversary already... ZzZZZz ... wonder how time just passed by like this... i've been the owner of this PC , table , chair and spot for almost 1 yr... LOL

Bored @ work... but life's been pretty busy for the 3 wks i'm in LP. Hehe... lotsa stuff to handle and get busy with. Pushes me... gets things done... go go go !!! Gonna start on saxophone classes soon !!! Excited abt that too... hehe.... something which i;ve yearned to learn... but never took action to get a step closer. LP does it !!!! Yeah !!!

Arrghhzz.... only half day goneeeeeeeee ZzZzzZzzz

Ming's convo + Aftermath drinks at Marina Mandarin

2006-11-09T23:38:00.000+08:00

Me and the aspiring grad... =)

It's US again... hahaha... the same kinda pic we took at my convo. Just that the mortar is now on my head ! tsk tsk....

Group pic...
Yvonne, Ming , Ade, Lucia, Me and Jamie

Cool eh ??? LOL
it's M.A.C !!!! just that position a bit wrong.. lol

The above pic and this one @ Marina Mandarin... my Pina Colada and Ming's snowball...

The morning conversation

2006-11-09T09:46:00.000+08:00

Just had a conversation with my senior this morning.

Feedback i have... stuff i do are not stretchy... missing out on impt points... my being... not showing up... my mirror reflections... etc...

Is there any difference before joining LP and being IN LP !??!?!
My mind is just like a whirlwind... so much to think about... is this the right choice?? Am i wasting my resources (Capital VIT M!) Am i still resisting ?? Am i still in my own world?? What am i up to ??? The only diff i know is that i'm doing more stuff... taking more proactive actions. I guess tt's about it. Still so focused about ME. It's not changing ain't it !??!?! Am i not showing up???

What is wrong with me ?!!??!!? I take challenges on PPG, LS, CS... but really... i am trying hard for E... pls dun keep reminding me every single day... it is stressing me out !!!
As of now, all i wanna do is to focus on work... not think abt anything else for the moment... Avoiding again... (HA HA HA)

Ups and Downs

2006-11-08T00:28:00.000+08:00

Pardon me if u dun understand my language... dun ask me wad it means either if u dun get it...
just not in a good mood and using this post as an avenue to release frustration.

Life is full of ups and downs... currently at my most DOWN time now for the week. E, PPG, LS... working well on PPG and LS. Maybe not tat well for PPG too.... out of 3, 2 are working... E for me is stressing the hell outta me. Other ppl are getting their E's. I am happy for them. It is worth celebration for i understand how difficult it is to even get 1 E. Happiness aside... yes i welcome challenges... but fear is getting all over me. Fear of the rejection, fear of losing that r/s. If it's to be, it's up to me ??? 100% possible all the time ??? My thinking caps are on again... it's the MM thingy ?? i dunch know. A thing is that i think the number of ppl around me are countable using my fingers and toes. Where am i with them ?? i dun wan them running away from me. Biggest rejection hit me. Kinda numb now... Keeping my mind occupied and not thinking abt it.

For a moment to ponder, i wonder what have i gotten myself into ?? Giving up is not an option although thoughts have hit me during this time. Perhaps i am still getting used to it. Not quite there yet. Notice i've been thinking so much that work is kinda getting affected. Something to look at... shall concentrate hard tmr...

So shagged... really so damn tired... how long will my body last ?!?!?!!?!??! It's not the number that i have to look at... but now... not even 1 is on the way. Damn it... WAKE UP MANZ !!!!

Ghost Town

2006-11-07T09:29:00.000+08:00

Just last friday... 3 November 2006, we had a farewell lunch for one of my colleague.
Yup... she's no longer sitting in office... the senior who always helps me whenever i'm in doubt... although sometimes also got mood swings and will say... 自己看着办. lol

The office is so quiet now.... The new colleague that i have... we speculate that he ain't gonna be here for long. Although he sits next to me, unless i strike a conversation, he doesn't speak !!!! gosh...

Right now, my office pretty much a ghost town with ppl walking around but hardly any noise. LAughter is already so scarce... it's gonna be even worse !!! It's kinda demoralising when u see ur collegues leaving 1 by 1.... can't help but ponder... when will it be my turn ?!?!?!!?

I know... if it's up to be, it's up to me... 100% possible.... aiyah... but afterall i'm still human ma...
Relationships still have so much room for improvement... thanks to Narin for telling me a story last nite. Shall relate the story the next time.

What's next ??

2006-11-06T10:27:00.000+08:00

Updating bloggie again... hehe... many have been asking me to UPDATE !!! =p

So AW advance journey came to an end... it was amazing... discovered more about myself... and have boldly taken the plunge to start on my LP (Leadership program) journey. So... WELCOME LP60 !!! Love my team.

It's now all about taking action and doing what it takes to get me to my goals. May not be big goals... but it still does take effort to take off ! In fact, i've got some pretty outreagous stuff up my sleeves during this LP journey... lolx... Open to everyone... If u have single guy friends... haha... intro to me can ??? Need some dates !!!! =p

Something that i learnt from my 1st wk of LP... time waits for no man. So much can be done in a week. Something which i have never experienced... forever wasting time... ZzZzzz There is so much to be accomplished that 24hrs a day is not enough. My mum thinks i look very tired. Shall take advice from my SGL... to rest early so that my parents wun be worried !!

It's my 2nd week into LP now... more stuff to get done... reach for my goals... with hte support of my SG, team, senior, my enroller and GLPs !!! Not a moment to waste !!! GO GO GO !!

p/s: i can't believe that i declared to read 2 chapters for my leadership study... and the 2 chapts are FREAKING LONG !!!!!!!!! *faint*

My Love and Support

2006-10-16T01:58:00.000+08:00

-Me and my dear SGL Irene... unconditional love and support... a Beautiful woman !-
-Me and Ming... really happy that she was there for our grad=) *muackss* when will it be ur turn ?? -
-Me and Ade... Love her very very much !!! Power Ade !-

-Maddy (stretch mate), dear Narin (my PT cum enroller... her risk of bringing me into AW... another beautiful woman !! Love love love u !) and Me-
-The Passion- Nerds (w/o Irene) My team who was beside me all the time! Lily, Fann, Susanna, Kitson, Cara and Me (need a pic with our SGL !)-
-Ade, Nicky, Me, Fann and Paul-

Journey of Life starts from NOW !

-Loving, Trusting, Beautiful-

REASON

2006-10-15T23:23:00.000+08:00

I'm not a perfect person

As many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over newand the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to knowI've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show

A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do

And the reason is you

My cassanova nephew =)

2006-10-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

-John John !!!-

-Me and little John-
So cutie and adorable !!! He's soo energetic !!! A cutie at 7 months =)

KTV session on 26th September 2006

2006-10-08T00:26:00.000+08:00

Fanstastic KTV session... haha... our Sammi session !! Very enjoyable time spent with Pris and Wenzi... hehe... singing all my fav tunes... We have to go again !!!!

-Me and Pris-

-Me and Wenzi-

-Pris and Wenzi-

The 3 of us =)

2006-10-03T09:50:00.000+08:00

Over- eating

Indulgence

No control

Bloated

That's wad i'm experiencing...

More cardio

Less sinful food

Control

Flat tummy

These are wad i really need...

I just saw the "perfect" body (i.e. my motivation) again yday...

2006-10-03T09:21:00.000+08:00

i am feelin' disturbed by someone's MSN nick...

Makes me feel as if it's arrowed towards me.

I wonder if i'm just being sensetive...

I am guilty of something becoz of a broken agreement.

But i dun think they understand what i feel and what i'm goin' thru.

I know that if i dun ever speak up, nobody will know.

It is a huge risk to take if i ever blurt it out to anyone here...

2006-10-03T09:10:00.000+08:00

Something which i kinda expected has happened

Hmm...

Should i change my decision ?? or maybe not afterall...

*thinking caps on*

23rd Bday pics

2006-09-24T23:56:00.000+08:00

More pics ....

http://s111.photobucket.com/albums/n145/Chrissy_2309/

Another mini-celebration

2006-09-24T23:39:00.000+08:00

Met up with my AW mates today for lunch... out of 6, there were only 4 of us. Irene, Ronald, Rajiv and me. But i still had a good time.

We had Swensen's for lunch.... and it was a treat for Rajiv and me from IRene... haha... Ronald had to pay =p Didn't know it was Rajiv's bday today !!! ^_^ Since it was our bdays, we had free bday ice-cream.... shared mine with Irene... heee... More of a catching up and talking session...

Thought of going to catch up on sleep... but like so wasted to go home after going to town. Since no special plans, went to Borders with Irene... book browsing... Realised that i haven been touching books for a SUPER LONG time and that there are many good bks out there. But then... no money la... broke.. haha... no buy =p But, should be getting a book from Irene soon after she gets it back from her senior =)

Then we walked around... looking for Singtel and M1 coz she wants to change her phone... haha... her most impt criteria is VOICE CLARITY... but nowadays like nobody emphasizes on that. She might get the K800i afterall. =)

Great time spent together ! It was good la... get to know each other a bit more... Our grp hopes to meet up once every month or so .... =) Let's hope we can do it ! Haha... Rajiv would love to have it somewhere with DRINKS.... drinks meaning alcoholic drinks .... tsk tsk...

p/s: the best stuff i heard this wkend... haha... My cousin couldn't recognise me at first yday... coz she said me lost quite a bit of weight since she last saw me. HAHA... My long time no see frends also said me lost weight... and HAHA.. today Irene said when she looked at me, she thinks i lost some too since perhaps 3-4 wks ago... Arms smaller (YAY !!) !!!!!

23 September 2006.... 23rd Bday =D

2006-09-23T23:42:00.000+08:00

Many groups of friends.... but limited number of people i can invite...
The final list... my HMBC JC gang and my uni friends.

Preparation started early... in fact shopping started since last week!!!

It's also one of the rare moments i'd pack up my room heee... (larling ade will know the diff... haha... the proportion of empty spaces available =p)

Wonderful parents who helped me with almost everything !!! Even though my mum wasn't feeling that well, she did so much !!! Dad who ran most of the errands. Really appreciate them.

My granny and aunt who love me alot too... without fail... appearing to celebrate my bday with me every year =D

Very thankful and appreciate larling ade for coming down early to help out =) thanks dearieee

Ming ming for helping me with some last min shopping... and hers and binny's help with the fishies (those that killed steve irwin) and the snacks =)

Lastly, all my other friends who took the effort and time off to come over. Their presence was indeed enjoyable. It was kinda gathering for all of us too... haven't met up for a long long time. Exept M.A.C ....hehe... still meeting up every now and then ^_^

Night ended with a movie ... DVD which i never touched since i brought back from Penang... heeee

Enjoyed myself... meeting up with everyone again... Creating a new experiences with the people i know. Loved the card filled with love and well-wishes and my 2 crumpler bags... tsk tsk...

Also... million thanks to all the well-wishes via sms !!! Thanks guys !!!

*muackss* to all who made my evening a memorable one !!!

2006-09-12T23:41:00.000+08:00

I realised that all my recent posts are all complaint entries... >.<

Complaining too much !?!?! All abt the same issues every time .... *sigh*

Have been trying to make my blog more alive by putting up some pic's or cartoons or comic strips... but yeah... doesn't seem to make my days any brighter...

Should do something about this... think a little more positive....

Look forward to happy stuff !!!

2006-09-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

2006-09-10T23:32:00.000+08:00

Letting LooSe CoZ it's FriDaY NiTe !

2006-09-08T18:53:00.000+08:00

Drivin' me up the wall

2006-09-08T18:49:00.000+08:00

Back to work...

29 new cases under me...

Urgent work -.-'''

Never ending phone calls

More and more miscellaneous work adding up

WTFFFFFFFFFFF

I'm just goin' NUTS !

Full Blast !!!

2006-09-05T14:50:00.000+08:00

Sick for 2 weeks

All started with a sore throat... perhaps from Basic Training...

Sore throat.... leads to a bad cough.... and blocked nose....

Nose starts running on the threadmill.... lolx

Blocked ears....

More cough.... for 2 weeks....

And finally today... FEVER !!! the highest temp so far.... 38.6 degrees !!! scary ehh....

Well, doc said i'm infectious... lolx... so MC for 2 days and he was like of course a BIG NO to physical activites !!! so no PT for exactly 1 week ! (ade said me really good at stretching my PT =p *shyz*)

*updatez*
7th September 2006

Down with gastic flu.... T-T

So far... 7 packs of tablets and 2 bottles of syrups.... how disgusting can it get...
And my taste buds are just gone... there's this really weird taste in my mouth now...
Greatest thanks to the medicines.... *pukes*

In denial... dreadful...

2006-09-03T22:16:00.000+08:00

Ever since the new member of McD Land spoke to me and knowing htat i have to service her, i dun wanna go back to work !

Challenges i welcome them...

But i dun see why i have to work with her as well. The case is not simple and it sounds complicated. I have other urgent work on hand which i can't seem to finish. The deadline i have to meet seems impossible. I know i cannot handle it.

I dread going to work.

I dread seeing that bitch's face.

Maybe that is why my cough never gets better.... I DUN WANNA GO BACK TO WORK !!!!

Why can't they just hire more staff instead of getting a manger ??? The ratio of managers vs staff ... sheeshh... it's like 1.5 : 1 How the hell do u expect us to service so many people ??

Taking over more work is a challenge... i willingly accept becoz it's under my group. But i dun wanna work with the BITCH !!!

Really... 1st impression counts ....

2006-09-01T15:46:00.000+08:00

Challenges... I see them coming...

Challenges... I will try to embrace them...

Challenges... I will do my best....

Challenges... I will bravely face them...

Challenges... Please dun eat me up !

Where is the support when u need it most ??

2006-08-31T09:27:00.000+08:00

I never realised once in my life that parental support was that important to me.

I have made a decision... but the support ain't there and that is why i have been so thinking so hard and so afraid that it's a wrong decision. But as i learnt from basic, it is my own choice and i have to be responsible for it. I should not be playing a victim role. I just feel something is missing and that i wouldn't be able to go for it 100%. =(

LAst nite, i talked to dad on the way home from class. I told him PT was ending soon and that i told Narin i had to choose btw PT and advance becoz i really have no $$$$. I have been hearing how powerful advance is and obviously PT is showing me fantastic results. So PT money has been well spent and i really mean it... Narin is a wonderful trainer! I told dad that i was gonna do advance... but i will miss trainings (i really do...). And his next sentence to me was "Give up ur asiaworks and go for trainings". What he makes me feel is that he is totally against asiaworks and would even be willing to continue paying for my trainings ??? WHY !?!?!?!

Perhaps i really do need to sit down with both mum and dad to know more... I dun wanna keep guessing. *sigh*

2006-08-30T16:54:00.001+08:00

1 has gone... another going....

i yearn for the day when i bid my farewell...

it's hell-ish here... i miss the comfort days in AW training room...

i have been so tired lately that i can't even open my eyes to complete an episode of serial... maybe it's all the thinking that has worn me out...

i feel weak due to the flu bug... i hardly have strength for my weights...

i have made an agreement with some b****y person and i really hope it wasn't a rash one...

The only good news is... i've finally reached the 50's range for my weight.... ^_^ CHEERS !!!

16 Aug 06 - 20 Aug 06

2006-08-20T23:50:00.000+08:00

Ming asked if i was gonna blog abt it... i told her NO... i thought i would have broken my agreement if i'd do so... but nope... i'm only sharing my OWN experience.

These five days have been indeed very special to me.
True and honest friends
Lotsa support
Super duper charasmatic SGL and fanastic SG (love them loads!!)
Time of reflection and thinking and realisation
All about ME
Rollar coaster journey
Sense of urgency
100% committment

I Love AW !!!! For more info ....please go to www.asiaworkstraining.com

AdVaNcEd !!!!!!!!! I WANT YOU !!!!!!!!

I BELIEVE I CAN FLY.... I BELIEVE I CAN TOUCH THE SKY !!!!!!!!

Intruder of McDland

2006-08-12T01:11:00.000+08:00

back track abit... yes ming... i knwo i haven been updating... but neither have u !

anyway, intruder of McDland has finally left...

Disruption to the McD members lifestyle...

Intruder performed as and when she wished... intruder walked in and out of McDland as and when she wished too...

Intruder once didn't conform to McDland's uniform code....

Besides intruder's work attitude, she got along still ok with the McD members...

When intruder left, 1 of the McD burgers told small fries that intruder's abrupt departure caused frenzy and frustration for that burger and big mac.

Now that intruder has left, McDland's operations are back to normal once again...

New Look

2006-08-05T16:04:00.000+08:00

Hehe... my dear ade and me after our haircut.. lolx

My hair looks a bit weird though... not as nice as after styling...

Ade's hairstyle cannot change much... hehe... coz she wanna keep long hair.. and herm.. ade.. ur hair actually really long le...

Haircut !!

2006-08-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

Finally went for a haircut today after work. hee... it's been 2-3 months !!!
Wanted to cut during weekend... but my dear ade called today and said tonight go cut !!! lolx
Called mickey to check if he's in tonight... den make appt for both of us... coz my hair needed treatment !! esp my scalp... haihhz...
Both of us are hermm.... poor right now... coz heee.... my dear ade is going for asiaworks with me !! But today, we spent another bomb... juz haircut + treatment... shheeeeshhh... although expensive but i think quite worth it... coz my head is in a better condition (maybe just feeling better) and my hair looks cool ! Mickey cut my hair differently today and if i could do some styling, it will look as cool everyday. But as usual, my hair will only look good after visiting the stylist. After that, it will look the same again. *sadz*
Let's see wad i can do about it... anyway... it's only the beginning of hte month...and i feel broke again... my dear ade and i have upgraded from eating grass to eating dust !!! *hugz* We concluded that dust has less calories than grass... haahhaahaha.. we are mad !!!!!!

My unglam working space

2006-08-01T23:46:00.000+08:00

This is the best overall pic i can take...haihhz....so narrow the space.....
It's after work and everyone has gone home except big mac and 1 manager.

Ok....it's so not personalised... not the way i wished my desk would be. But nobody decos their desk in my dept. The stingy office i work in only provides ONE blue pen ONE black pen ONE red pen ONE yellow highlighter ONE pencil ONE stapler ONE rusty hole puncher (the one at the corner) ONE faded keys calculator ONE eraser and TWO rulers. Well, whatever can been seen are actually ALL MINE. Pens, mechanical pencil, highlighters, the black hole puncher, water bottle, cup, mini radio (which is hardly switched on), tissue box, umbrellas and ohh...that 2 boxes on the left corner to keep some stuff properly. That's about it. The only personalised thing i have is my wallpaper... hahahaha.... that pic was taken by my aunt when they went to Alaska.... so envious...
The telephone just got changed not too long ago... so yeah... it's not the ancient brown telephone which i first had when i joined. The table is a bit cleared up... can be more messy during working hours. The thick ring file on the top.... sheesh... behind me are rows and rows and rows of such files. I am being surrounded by nothing else but papers, new and old dusty ones and files.... how depressing.

Friendster...

2006-07-30T14:11:00.000+08:00

Was flipping thru today's ST... read about how there are so many bloggers out there nowadays... some seeking fame, while some others updating their friends on their lives...
Whatever the reason may be, i'm of the bloggers too... haha...
The cover was filled with pictures taken from several friendster pages... which made me realise i haven't been on friendster for a long long time. It was a page where i kinda found many many old classmates. Going thru their friendster pages, i could see where they are now, how they are, what they are doing etc...
Just now, once again, i went onto friendster. I haven't been updating my page for i dun know how many days, months or maybe even a year (???) Anyway, just updated my profile there... going thru the many pages once again, i realised many of my ex-classmates have gone overseas to further their studies... looking at their pictures... i can see how happy they are with their new friends, new environment. All havin' so much fun, travelling around and experiencing new stuff ! It kinda makes me wonder.... when i will have the courage to take that step forward to experience something exciting ...

Active lifestyle....

2006-07-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

I wonder what would i be like now if i never signed up for gym or PT.... shheeeshhh

Work work work... go home, slack, eat, sleep... my gawd ... with a desk bound job... i think i'd really be a round pig by now...

Seems like my days are filled with activities... PTs are never fixed... but definitely twice a week. Fridays i will be in gym for Waihan's body balance class ^_^ and since i'm already there, some cardio workout...

Now, another added activity... badminton sessions with my colleagues... i joined them last week. Actually a session with 2 of my colleagues and their ex-colleague and friends... haha... so now i know a few more ppl :p My badminton skills have obviously deteriorated tremendously... which also led to horrible muscle aches that didn't help at all when i had PT with Narin again. It was a heavy hard session and my arms were "breaking" and back aching from badminton.... lol...
Going for another session tmr.... or rather later... haha... and i've yet to pack my bag.

So there goes 4 days of my week.. oh.. not forgetting guitar lesson every wed evening. so.. that leaves me 2 free nights.... and usually weekends... time for me to pig out on my bed !!!! lolx... SLEEEPPPP !!!!!!!!!

Seeing mingggyy update her blog with a pic of her office work area, i'm tempted to do so too. Not that it's so personalised or something to be proud off. It's to compare how horribly tight space is and how messy it is with all the files around and how there's NOTHING personalised except my PC desktop .... hahahhahhahaa

Goodbye Camry, Hello Civic

2006-07-25T11:10:00.000+08:00

We just got our new car yesterday!! A black honda civic ^_^
Although our camry was still serving us well, somehow my dad decided to change car. Anyway, it has been about 5 years since we had that camry. The 2L car was big and comfy and steady... nice to drive, but hard to park. lol...
Our new civic... i think it's pretty cool !! but have to get used to driving it. Can't really see the side traffic well. Finally a BLACK car !!!! hehehe... I think my dad misses the big camry... this civic is smaller... but more stylish la.... :p Features wise, of course the camry gained upper hand. The automatic wiper, AC on/off etc...
I'm still trying to figure out how to use the gadgets inside d car... hehe... but i think really got generation gap la... i no nid to check manual also can set radio and clock... my parents were still trying to press every button to configure it :p
Dad's driving is pretty slow.... hahaha... i think new car... muz take care abit....wahahhahaha... i shall test drive it sooon....kekekee

My Gloves ^_^

2006-07-23T18:50:00.000+08:00

Finally have time to search for the cam and take a few shots... haha... "S" gloves !!! lol... To prevent callousing when doing weights... hehe.... Thanks "mummy" !!!! :p

Nike training gloves

2006-07-17T23:43:00.000+08:00

The fickle-minded me still have not decided what i want as my gift from my "mummy" trainer. The gift is for being able to lose a specific amount of weight in a time frame set by Narin ^.^
She said she'd get me a top... any top.... but dear adidas hasn't been coming up with any nice stuff. Everything is centred around world cup =.=''''
Nike my other fav sports brand... shoes look good.... but not the clothes... so... yeah.. i never decided.
But today.... after our usual "date" at the weighing scale, Narin said she bought something for me... i waited for her... and tada!! I've got training gloves !! =) lol... she got me a S size... hahaha... i think that's the ONLY thing i can fit in a S for nike stuff.... lolx... how fat can i get.... *rolls eyes*
Very happy with my gift... training with the gloves on now, will remind me of Narin (esp her torturous session!! hehe...)
Shall take a pic of it later when i have the time !
And i've pd the deposit for asiaworks. Now deciding if August or September is a better choice...

Asiaworks....

2006-07-11T23:01:00.000+08:00

During training today, Narin suddenly popped the Q into my head again.
Actually, all along i have been thinking about it... She mentioned that it has almost been more than a month since she started asking me. She talked to me about it, then handed me a reg form which i happily took home and stared at it. Until the past weekend, i picked it up and started filling it up. haha... But i that was it. i stopped there...
Narin was sharing with me her experiences and how she felt she has changed. But she didn't want to tell me everything in case i decided to attend it. She said that if she blurt out too much, i wouldn't benefit wholly. Hmm... Honestly, i think she has indeed changed since the 1st time i saw her. And in some ways, we are pretty much the same (certain characteristics). Her life is much more fulfilled (from wad she told me) and perhaps the changed her makes me enjoy my training sessions even more.
Before she shared her stuff with me tonight, i always felt pressurized by her asking. Not that i wasn't pressured again tonight. I actually very much want to go coz i know i need a change. But of course there are restrictions. Narin told me to put away all my concerns hindering my thoughts and just decide if i wanna go. After that decision, then think abt the rest.
My hurdles.... finance and my mum !
I really hope to see a change in myself and my thinking when i've gone thru it. Celine jie jie reassured me that i will see a change... hehe ^.^
Well, the good thing about this is that, after the 5 days if u feel u didn't learn anything or it hasn't changed u for the better, a 100% refund is guaranteed. lolx

10 no-diet secrets

2006-07-09T22:47:00.000+08:00

From the book i borrowed from NLB... good book ^.^

Don't deprive yourself- Treat yourself once a week (perhaps i over treat myself :p)
Drink water, drink water, drink water (drink loadz...)
Watch 10 mins of exercise a day change your face and your life (gym gym gym !!!)
Schedule fitness appointments in writing each week (weekly sessions with Narin does the trick...hehe... well... i've been pretty disciplined abt this even w/o trainer sessions... hopfully it stays this way)
Don't stop eating- Stop eating in front of the TV (trying my best... lolx)
Pick an idol and let that person motivate you (my idols are way too perfect in my eyes... )
Breathe consciously for 5 mins every day(nid to take note)
Take 30 mins of private time each day(private time... i do have them.. but nid to be a bit quieter)
Write yourself a love letter once a month(mission impossible)
Stand up staight and tall(will try )

www.feelgoodnaked.com - Laure Redmond

好漂浮

2006-07-04T18:19:00.000+08:00

Dunch understand why a person's mood can swing so drastically.

A moment ago, we were still talking amiciably. The next time i asked something, the answer was pretty much hostile. Hmm...
It may be due to work environment... the stress and frustration that person is feeling. But is there such a need to show it to other people when i just asked a very casual question. Sheeshh...

Weekend juz zoomed past again...

2006-07-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

Let's see... My whole saturday was burnt with...
ok... i set my alarm at 10.30am... but it was 12pm before i jumped outta of bed. Had to meet Narin for PT at 1pm... lolx... so quickly washed up, changed, grabbed everything i needed, skipped "breakfast" (lolx) and opened the fridge to find hte remaining soya milk i had and gulped it down.
Dad was at work, i had to make my way to cali myself. haha... it was a mad rush... but i reached before 1pm ^.^ Saw Narin training another client and i was giggling coz she was doing hte abs machine Narin always forced on me... and i was just picturing myself in that machine and trying so hard to move my "unfit" body.
Well, she caught me laughing and told me i was in for hard work coz she wun be around for the next 6 days... haha... did a bit of cardio myself before started my session with her. It was hell... i had to do the stair climber and half bosu squats >.< I was still talking happily and laughing until the 2nd set... while doing the squats i was feeling faint :s And Narin STOPPED my training. She said she refused to train me on an empty tummy. So i was made to go to the juice bar to have my fav mango berlini smoothie plus a scoop of protein. Man... it tasted like shit... DISGUSTING !! that scoop of protein ruined my whole drink... i was swallowing it so hard and felt like puking... seriously.. it was BAD !!! Never again am i gonna have protein drinks again *bleah*
She had time for me to take the drink coz she didn't have a client after me... so i kinda had an extended session ^.^ Always enjoy her presence... haha... never failing to crack me up :p
Oh... she asked me about asiaworks again... and i wonder if it really is THAT GREAT. Coz she said she paid the deposit for me :s OMG...
Went to Bugis to walk abit .... didn't spend much money *grinz* reached home about 5pm... everyone was sleeping -.-''' I felt bored and changed and jumped into the pool. A day of exercise =) But the day ended with a durian session. haha... didn't eat THAT MUCH la... :p

Sunday... family lunch... no nid spend $$ again ^.^ hahaha... i'm getting so stingy nowadays. :p Then we went back to Bedok Ria to clean up... whole afternoon burnt that way... dinner at granny's place... den headed back home. So tired... thought could do some work before sleeping. But, suddenly mum felt a sharp pain in the lower abdominal and she went all weak and pale... it was pretty scary.... i took a really quick shower and we went to CGH A&E. Thankfully, nothing serious... the pain subsided while we were waiting for the damn doctor. So long !!! -.-''''
Kinda condemn CGH... only allow 1 visitor to accompany patient... that's fine as long as they take control and make sure all patients have 1 visitor only. -.-''' The wait was freakin' long and there was this guy sitting on the wheelchair who kept puking... and it was really loud and his family members had no common sense and pushed him so near to other patients -.-''''
We saw the nurse, she took down some "notes" and we had to wait again for the doctor. Everything is so computerised now. But it makes things quite slow actually. The doctor who attended to us was a young MO. -.-''' I thought he was CMI... think he's just 1 of those housemen around... He kept sniffing which made me thought he should be wearing a mask or he should be seeing a doc instead. He's knowledge was not fantastic... he had to keep going out to his senior -.-''' super unpro. And worse of all, his dustbin was not covered !!! Imagine all the germs flying around. OMG... I was busy observing and inspecting everywhere !!! lolx.... Thought hospitals should be hygenic. But not really though... And i wonder why housemen are placed in A&Es. Imagine a patient who's really sickly... and here u have doc who needs to keep seeking 2nd opinion. sheeshh.....

To sum up, it was a busy weekend... and it's back to work again *sobs*

2006-06-29T23:52:00.000+08:00

side track abit from La Femme Desperado... haha...

i've been telling myself that i'm so blardy broke this month... which i have no idea why too... juz seems as if i'm drawing money every other day =.='''
But today i walked into MJ afte guitar... O.O OMG !!! they're selling the imported version of Joey's Ten Most Wanted !!!! It's a freaking $29.90 though... i resisted... I just surfed yesasia... lolx... free shipping ceiling has lowered to US$25 until 30 June midnight!!! Now there's a chance that i may just order it online coz it's cheaper !!!! Ten Most Wanted + One Live One Love Concert CD !!! lolx... there goes my money ?!?!!?!?!? hmmm....

ok... besides that .... i spent money again today... -.-''' bought guitar strings... i think i nid them. I haven re-strung my guitar since god knows when... *faintz* i wonder if i even remember how to change the strings... sheesshhhhh

I heard the lame-est answer parents can give a child for rejecting the idea of watching a movie... here it goes....
Family of 4 enters the lift after us. The little boy looks around and sees posters of movies put up by GV.

Boy: Dad !!! Can we watch Garfield 2 ?? *excited*
Dad: No...
Boy: Why not ?? Garfield is a nice show ! (i wonder if he really knows wad nice... he's too young..lolx)
Dad: We are not watching it... we don't like cats -.-'''
Mum: We do not have cats at home.... we have dogs (shesshhh) We like dogs. We watch movie with dogs in them... (WTH @#$#^%&)
Dad: We are DOG people... (WTF.... wad are dog people !?!?!?! )

Then boy stares at the posters again.... he points to The Omen and tells his parents... "this movie has a dog... are we watching it??" (=.=''''')

I seriously dun understand how his parents could come up with such LAME answers... I was trying so hard not to say LAME out loud... i could only stare and not believe wad i was hearing... so for those with cats at home... Garfield is a muz to watch !!!! -.-''' If u've got pets other than cats, Garfield's not for u >.<

I've got terrapins at home... which movie has terrapins that i can go watch !?!?!!?! WTH !!!!!!

女人唔易做 La Femme Desperado

2006-06-27T01:09:00.000+08:00

Just finished this series... pics are posted below... totally love this series !!!
Sheren Tang always has that very pro aura. She's a veteran in TVB ! Melissa Ng... dun exactly like her that much but she's doing better in each series. Raymond !! hehe... he's cute !!! :p He lost weight in this series i think !!! That boyish look kills !!!! hahahhaha...
It's been some time since i last got so excited over a serial :p

1st of all, this show is abt the team of brand marketers... hehe... interesting job they have... i'm interestd :p
2nd... love their dialogues and how the HK ppl manage to come up with such storylines...
3rd...very interesting topics... MCPs, romance with a much much younger guy, a single mother etc...

Highly recommended serial... i will watch it over and over again.... btw... i changed my blog music to the theme song :p hehehe....
subsequent entries will be topics related to 女人唔易做

女人唔易做

2006-06-26T01:40:00.000+08:00

Credits: 1st pic www.sammicheng.popz.tv; remaining pics www.tvb.com.hk

WHEN

2006-06-22T10:15:00.000+08:00

i know when i get sick of my job....

1) when i have to do computations and there ain't sufficient information
2) when i can't clear review points quick enough
3) when the info is attached and yet the managers do not see and ask again
4) when the computation keeps having changes and keeps going
5) when clients ask for things which i do not understand
6) when i am too dis-organised
7) when i am being chased and pressed for things
8) when i have to keep calling hte stupid IRAS hotline which always puts me on music for at least 10 mins
9) when everything is urgent
10)when......

2006-06-18T23:58:00.000+08:00

Hmm... weekend gone again...

Did some research on the course that Narin asked me to sign up for. Well, it's really quite a sum to invest in such a self-enrichment program. But it seems to be quite good from what i've read on the internet... hmm... still thinking la... if it can really enlighten me about my direction i should head and let me find out more abt who i really am, improve myself and relationship with others... it can kinda justify the cost ?? At this point, dun really wanna spend more money (i.e. another HUGE sum of $$$). Feeling exceptionally broke this June... i wonder why :s

Mum asked me how my research on the universities have been.... :s Was very enthu went i came back from aussie... and am also active in searching whenever i suddenly feel so sick at work. haihhz... i guess, i nid to search for more.... not much time left. Shouldn't been wasting too much time anymore.

DEPRESSED !!!! nobody seems to like the nike watch. My dad has no comments. But mum was utterly shocked at my choice. Friends... hmm... like not much comments too... sheeshh.. maybe it's really ugly... hahaha... if that's the case, i'd juz dump it aside for the time being until i find something nicer... Concentration focused on searching for that adidas jacket !!! Oh... i kinda fell in love at 1st sight with another pair of nike shoes... hahaha... dun know should buy or not ... well, it's just me... whenever i spend my own $$$ i think hard and twice before making the decision.

Recently, have been leaving office much earlier than usual... that place is too depressing to stay any longer. 7 months is coming.... means 5 more months to 1 yr.... i can't wait !!! it's either a new job or study. Hopefully i can leave early for this coming week... hehehe....

lolx... i realised every paragraph is so random... shows how "organised" i am. Whatever comes to my mind, i juz pen it down. hahahahaa...

oh before i forget.... Robbie Williams concert anyone ?? ticket sales only on 19,20 and 21st June !!!

NIKE watch !!

2006-06-14T10:33:00.000+08:00

BOOB BOOBIESSSS !!! lolx

2006-06-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.... i guess i know why i look forward to getting tortured by my trainer...

Though it's physically torturing/tiring, it's mentally relaxing. It always feels good after a great workout. And it's the witty, nutty, crazy, blur trainer i have !!! She never fails to make me laugh during trainings. Helps me forget wadever shitty stuff i've had during the day in office. She's kinda a very different person from the impression she gave me on our FIRST session.
Take today for e.g. ... i was made to run on the threadmill again... towards the end, nearly felt like giving up, lowering the speed and walk... but somehow i persisted and continued... and there, i was treated to a nice icey cold mango smoothie ^.^ She can somehow notice my "mood" together with my facial expressions. She can tell whether i had a pleasant day. haha...

The main highlight of today's training was me spotting a super muscular guy... and i really mean muscular... huge biceps and triceps and his chest was HUGE !!! And to make things worst, he was clad... not dressed in a really skimpy PINK singlet. *Faintz* i was like... " NARIN... LOOK TO UR LEFT !!! LOOK AT THAT GUY !!!" and that was it... my trainer went bonkers... making me laugh the next part of training. That guy was known as the boobie guy... lolx... All she could say was "mama... boobie boobie... how abt some milk...." something to that effect la... OMG... she was mad... hahaha... she even had the action of wanting to squeeze it... OMG... and she actually went to tell another trainer who was with his trainee. The look on their faces...I think they would have thought we 2 were totally outta our minds, laughing hysterically!!

Ohh.... today she asked me again if i was interested in the asiaworks course... hmm... no idea wad it is all about actually. According to her, it has helped her find out more abt herself and she thinks it will help her in the future. She asked me... what are the 3 goals in my life at this point of time. I couldn't answer. Firstly, i never liked it when ppl ask me such things... my mind goes blank. Makes me feel so aimless. She gave me an e.g. Having better relationship with people. But i guess, wad's seeded in my mind is to find a career that i really enjoy. As for the other goals, i think i have to really sit down and think through it. I dun believe that i can be so aimless !!!!

2006-06-09T09:42:00.000+08:00

Indications of no/losing interest in my job:

1) Procrastinating certain compulsory admin stuff
2) Feels super lousy once the clock turns 9am
3) Feeling good when ur immediate superior is not around
4) Accelerated decrease in work productivity
5) Always feel like doing other stuff during office hours
6) Looking forward to going to gym to be with my best friend..."threadmill" haha
7) Having a really messy table in office making myself "look" busy
8) Mind is always wandering everywhere except work
9) Loves fridays after 6pm and starts feeling like shit when it's sunday night
10) Starting to flip the saturday papers once again and looking out for potential courses to take up

Recent updates

2006-06-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

Have been reminded that i've not updated my blog for some time now.... :p
Quick summary of updates...

1) Been to Sydney from 19th May to 28th May 2006 and enjoyed the relaxing lifestyle a lot. Considering going there to study next year.

2) Have been super duper busy at work... coz 1 salary, do 2 ppl's work. But tmr, the other girl is coming back... well, not complaining much coz i dun mind alternating my work.. a break from the usual boring computations. But i can't breathe when everything is URGENT !!! In the 6 months i've been with FKT, 1st time i went in to work on a saturday and 1st time i ended work at almost 8pm... sheesehhhh.....

3) I owe XXX timesheets.

4) Dug out my long chucked aside PDA out to use again.... hahahahaa... it appeared again juz a wk before i left for sydney :p

5) I now officially own a ipod video !!!! hehehhe.... :p

6) Been dutifully going for my gym sessions... and from the start till now.... it's 7kg gone ~~ woohooo~~~ my target was another 5 kg ?? But apparently, Narin set another target for me on my last session.... another 10kg to go -.-''''

7) Went for a party with ade... invited by Narin... and ade in case u're wondering where that $10 goes to... it's donation towards the rainbow club... haha... Dun know why, but the ppl we met were either rich but too old or terribly utterly boring (shheshh... who has ever heard of such boring topics e.g. "ur thoughts abt the recent elections" or "how to know the health of a company and read its financial statements" WTH) !! Well, apparently there were younger ones around... but hmm... we didn't see them around ?? haha... ade was attractive !! so many ppl asked for her no. while i "siam" away.... lolx....

I might have been looking dull and have a no mood kinda look and have been feeling sooo tired this past week.... well... it's all due to STRESS... coz i was so afraid i couldn't cope with the double workload and it's $$$$$ i'm dealing with and also URGENT work -.-'''' But i'm glad i survived... however, i nid to catch up on the idiotic stupid timesheet.

Highly stressed up

2006-05-31T18:02:00.000+08:00

Our dear secretary is on long mc (1 week and it's our crucial period now)... and i think she'll be on a even longer mc soon. This also means that i have to cover up for quite some time.
On one hand, i feel she should stay at home and have a real good rest. But on the other hand, i'd just wish she come back and take over the stuff !!!
I have to rush my own stuff... 1 week leave last wk and i still have things piling in my in-tray. There are urgent stuff (cases which weren't my own but i had to help others cover)... and i am utterly disgusted that 1 of the main dishes in McD didn't check thru my work. There was only the urgency to push out the computation. Now the customer is back with queries and i realised it was my mistakes. Well, i can't shift all the blame to that main dish... but at that point of time, it was urgent, i rushed it out and quality of work dropped ?? But i dun like the fact that it was casted in marking but not really checked.
I feel like shit now... i have to take care of the bills and yet big mac is not avail for me to confirm the numbers. And the accounts are closing which leaves me hardly any time !!! And it also means i have to stay back to wait until big mac is ready and avail to have some time for me. WTF !!!!!!
Now all the more i feel like quitting !!!!!! Pack up and go...either to find another job or to study once again....

I know i'm getting bored...

2006-05-17T12:32:00.000+08:00

Seems like work doesn't really give me satisfaction now...
i'm getting bored... it doesn't interest me... or rather since when has anything to do with accounting interest me ???
hmmm... here i am now... starring at a computation to be done.... stoning at it... searching for details and figures which do not make sense to me.... Trying very hard not to fall asleep. (i actually did just now... hopefully nobody saw me noddding off)
These few days have to juggle btw my own work and the secretary's jobs... Although admin work is mundane... i find myself taking more pride in the admin stuff i do. shhesshhh....
My mind is wondering everywhere and is unable to focus...

Back from lunch... had a cup of tea... hopefully it keeps me awake till the end of the day. I have to ganabatte !!! My timesheet is laggin... i have nothign to charge... WTH -.-''''
2 more days and off i fly... i am glad that granny is staying with me for the these 3-4 days. Something which i miss since she shifted to stay with ah yi. =) But regret not being able to stay at home most of the time... haihhz... take tonight for e.g. Guitar den to the gym... sheeshh... by the time i get back, she should be gettin ready to ZzZzzZzzzzz.....
Although naggy... but i still love her =D

Excuse my language...

2006-05-10T11:19:00.000+08:00

I HATE THE DARN BLARDY FREAKIN' TIMESHEET !!!!!

would u juz quit asking me to submit it ??????

Back again....

2006-05-07T15:50:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG !!! hahaha... the crumpler craze is back for me again....
I remember wanting to get it since my last birthday... but apparently, it's too expensive as a gift.
But seeing people carrying the crumpler bags on the streets and walking past the crumpler boutiques for 2 consecutive days, i'm itching for it again...
Aiming for the "Barney Rustle Blanket" (the pic above) hahaha.... and it's the ORANGE one !!!
The price of the bag is almost the same as the ADIDAS jacket i saw... maybe i have to choose between the 2 of them. hmm... i wonder if it's cheaper in sydney... i saw that they do have shops there too.. but since they are boutiques.. hmmm... maybe should ask my cousin to check it out for me first.... hehehhe....

edit: the bag is more expensive than the adidas jacket !!! *faintz* and the girl at the shop told me it's an aussie brand... so maybe aussie cheaper ??? hmmm....

i've been tagged...

2006-05-03T23:17:00.000+08:00

Wenz told me that i've been tagged by her to do this...lolx...

FOUR JOBS I'VE DONE IN MY LIFE

my current sucky job... tax professional... or rather tax assistant -.-'''
hmm.. not sure if this is considered a job or juz a stop-over... financial advisor
temp job... admin stuff...
ballet teacher... hehe... helped my teacher to teach the younger ones w/o pay... that was how enthu i was abt dance... and something related to this... ballet pianist

FOUR MOVIES THAT I COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN

Summer holiday (夏日嬷嬷茶）
Yesterday once more (龙凤斗）
Finding Nemo
hmmm....practically all movies by Mi Cheng... prob except her latest piece of work :p

FOUR PLACES I'VED LIVED

The Waterina
Bedok Ria
NTU Hall 12
Tampines

FOUR TV SHOWS I LOVE TO WATCH

Triumph in the skies
Healing hands series
DIF series
FOJ series

Practically all HK dramas....lolx

FOUR PLACES THAT I'VE BEEN ON VACATION (the 4 memorables ones... m'sia not counted :p)

Europe (Italy and Switzerland)
South Africa
Australia (Sydney)
China (Beijing + HongKong)

FOUR PLACES I VISIT DAILY WHEN I'M ONLINE

sammicheng.popz.tv
joey galaxy
gmail/yahoo mail
blogs

FOUR OF MY FAVOURITE FOOD (dun wanna tempt myself...*sigh*)

salmon sashimi
the brinjal dish by crystal jade
hmm.. salad for now.. haha... (brocolli, cauliflower, lettuce, tomotoes etc...)
eggsssss

FOUR PLACES I WOULD RATHER BE NOW

sleeping on my bed
Europe (anywhere that i haven't been to !)
HongKong
anywhere but the office

FOUR FRIENDS WHOM I'VE TAGGED AND THINK THEY WOULD RESPOND

Ming
Ade
Binny (maybe if she has the time)
Pris (aka piggy... if she's not tired and not sleeping... hahahhaha )

LABOUR DAY !

2006-05-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

Yeah... holiday... hehe... 4 day work week... how i wish it's 4 days week every week !!!! >.<
Went for PT today... was so worried that i'd either maintain or put on a bit coz of yday's eating and drinking spree...
Hehe... Narin was on the phone while fiddling with the weighing scale... and both she and i were suprised she could move it so much downwards... wahahahhaha... no wonder magz say that it doesn't kill if u eat a bit more calories for 1 day and cut it down the next. She said i was smiling all the way during our first 15min of cardio thinking abt the how the scale went down. lolx... Yeah.. and now she owes me a sports top !!! coz she sort of had a "bet" with me... she challenged that i had to lose 5kg within 2 months... and it's less that 2 months !! i wonder if she'll really get me 1 :p It's some kinda motivation for me... i think she's quite a good trainer...
I got tortured today again... did 5 sets of machines... and tried 1 new one....and realised my arms are really so weak ! :( Can't do the dips and pull ups... *sigh* Oh... she had a few trainee trainers under her... today 2 were attached during my session. So stress -.-''' 3 pairs of eyes looking at me workout. luckily halfway, they were needed for something else... but came back for the last set of workout. Narin's quite fierce to her trainees... and strict to her clients (aka me) during trainings.
For that determination of that 5kg shed, i shall buy something nice for myself. haha... nid to look around first... Am also motivated to continue PT till i reach my goal... nid a bit more discussion for sponsorships... anyone wanna contribute ???

Happening weekend...

2006-05-01T01:36:00.000+08:00

Saturday...
Reunion with my ding ding jie jie aka celine jie jie aka blur blur dei aka sammi02^.^
It's been 2-3 yrs since i last met up with her in KL!!! This time she finally came to SG and FINALLY took some of her precious time to meet up with me. Didn't have much time with her coz she was bz rushing off for her football match... :s i never understood a football match. A bunch of big guys running after a small ball and getting all violent and stuff.... lolx
HAd dinner together.... talked abit... updated each other abt our lifes... Hope she can find a job in SG la.... den dun have to wait another 2-3 yrs to meet up again :s Thankfully, still had some time to squeeze in a photograph with her =)

Sunday...
Spend a full 12 hrs with my colleagues... hahahha.... not that we haven't had enough of one another during office hours. But we hardly have time to speak except during our 1 hr lunch break. But it's different when u see everyone in casual wear. Initially it was juz 4 of us... and i must say the world is so small... we actually bumped into another colleague twice with her family. She's also our lunch mate... but we didn't extend our invitation to her... i think the other 3 and her a bit diff frequency la... Her style of doing stuff... sometimes we all can't tolerate.
Anyway, lunch... was at pasta cafe... ordered 3 mains and 1 appetiser... 4 ppl share. Walked quite a bit before deciding it was time for coffee. Sheeshh... it was a pretty long walk before we finally settled at starbucks. All the other places we wanted to go, either close shop or full house. We sat for 2 hrs ++ gossiping away... 4 ladies... wahahahaa...imagine the gossips going on :p
Dinner was at crystal jade... we all just wanted something simple... so ended up eating porridge or noodles. lolx... their ex-colleague joined us. I met him and his wife twice... hehe... nice ppl too... this guy used to take my seat in office :p Each of us juz had a bowl/plate of something and we sat there yakking for quite long !! haha... we were in a secluded corner so we didn't bother about ppl's stares.
After dinner ... off for some drinks... where we talked for another 2 hrs ++ OMG.. hahhaa... we just have so much to talk about . lolx... Had my hoegardens... and we were told to sweep all the peanut shells to the ground. I think we made quite a mess!!! The ventilation there was quite good... coz even though we were surrounded by smokers, we didn't get chocked to death ! lolx

I had a happening weekend... very happy to have met up with ding jie ... and a great time with my colleagues... now nid to catch up on sleep and to lose weight from all the food and drinks !!

hehehe....

2006-04-27T23:25:00.000+08:00

Narin didn't get to kick my ass today !!! She claimed i kicked my own ass first :p
i officially shed off those unsightly calories which i unknowingly put on in penang. *HAPPYZ*
the target she set for me last wk was to get rid of that weight i put on and to try shed a bit more... which i did !!!! hehehehe
Gonna see her again on LABOUR DAY -.-''' really labour on that day... sheeshhh.... monday... 3 more days.... and she wants me to lose a abit more. Weekend is tough la... unless i dun sit at home. But i can't...coz i really enjoy staying and sitting around and sleeping at home hahahhaa... which inevitably leads to some snacking.

Well... i've got things up my sleeves again. NEw things which i so wanna get !!!

1) An adidas jacket
2) A sporty watch... was aiming for that adidas watch... but white one sold out. >.<
3) The ipod videoooo !!! cousin steven was heavily promoting it in penang lolx... got me so tempted.
4) Sign up more PT.

Everything needs money... and my 1 month salary is not enough !!!!!!! >.<
oh.... my leave has been approved and i am confirmed that i'll be going to Sydney in May !!! ^.^

Churning tummy >.<

2006-04-26T12:49:00.000+08:00

Had steamboat last nite at bugis area.
Ate mostly vege and some seafood...
And this morning, woke up with a tight tension in my tummy. After a while, i thought it felt ok. So came to office... it started churning again... *cryz* Couldn't really do any work. The pain can be quite bad at times. Thought food poisoning... But once i step into the office toilet, the pain goes away... Walk back to my table, sit a while, the pain is back again. OMG... why like this...
haihhz.. maybe i shouldn't have been greedy and ate steamboat >.<
I think overate a bit ....but really we took vege, mushroom, little bit of fish and chicken, prawns and more vege. When i look at others eat... shesshh... i really wonder how the shop earns money.
Dun feel like eating lunch le... the pain, dun know is cramp or food poisoning or hungry. haihhz...
Cannot go home coz got so many things to do... haihhz... why like thissss

Monday Morning Blues

2006-04-24T09:05:00.000+08:00

It's the time of the morning once again. Back in office... having to start the week all over again and looking forward to the next weekend again. I suppose i had enough sleep last night... landed on bed pretty early... haha... before 12am :p
Although enough sleep, the monday moody blue feeling is still here. Dunch feel like doing anything... but i know there's stuff waiting for me... *sigh*
This weekend... caught some sleep... didn't get my x-ray done (gonna get killed by Narin *hides*), managed to buy a new wallet (:D been searching for 1 for some time... it's still the longish type and black....lolx... not adventurous enough for a yellow or maroon one. most imptly, it's the no. of card holders inside... seems like the no. of slots are getting lesser and lesser... i wonder why... *ponderz*) and realised... i'm getting adidas mad... lolx...
so much for the weekend.... time to start work >.<

DUMBEST ACT EVER

2006-04-21T00:16:00.000+08:00

Someone in the household did the most stupid thing i have ever heard. That someone put my WHITE FAVOURITE SHIRT into the machine to wash with coloured clothes. NOW MY SHIRT IS GREY !!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAT THE FARKKKKKKKKKKKKKK !!!!!!!!!!
I'm pretty sure common sense tells us NOT TO MIX white clothings with coloured clothings when washing. That's like totally common sense. I really cannot believe that such a dumb act could have been done. And it's like totally irreversible now.
I was in the shower when the clothes were put to wash. Sitting in my room when my ever kind mum saw wad happened to my fav shirt and she immediately washed it and bleached it even though she has showered. i walked out to throw something and saw my "grey" shirt. i was freaking mad. If only my mum had done the washing. She wouldn't have made such a mistake. Now how the hell am i gonna wear that again ???????? It'll be totally embarassing to wear a white become grey shirt to work. FARRRKKKKK !!!!!!!!!!! i just wore it yesterday !!!!!!!!!!! -.-'''
I'm a person who likes to keep good/favourite stuff. I save the best for the last. So in order for my shirt to not look so old, i try not to wear it all the time. NOW IT'S TOTALLY RUINED AND I'M BOILING MAD... and there's no apology.

Panda eyes...

2006-04-20T09:39:00.000+08:00

Sheeshhh... woke up this morning, while brushing teeth, i looked up in the mirror and got a shock O.O "Who's that panda in the mirror ????"
OMG...my eye bags are terrible !!! Looks as if someone punched me in both eyes. How i yearn for more sleep in the morning. :(
Sleep earlier...hmm... so not me... the night is already sooo short. If sleep earlier, how much time do i get to spend sitting in my room or outside watching TV or doing something else??
Actually, i think i'm a tired person... i can fall asleep while watching TV... But once i take my shower, i'm wide awake again. -.-''' Maybe becoz of hte penang trip, i didn't get my sufficient weekend sleep. So i'm like a zombie since monday. >.<
I can't wait for the weekend to arrive... SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP !!! but perhaps not so much on saturday. Have to see hte doc early morning to ask for referal for x-ray -.-''' So troublesome !!! If only i didn't fall during the last and final blading session.

Another decision

2006-04-18T23:16:00.000+08:00

No idea wad happened to my blog...arrghhz.. my long entry disappered...
Re-entry:-

Supposed to blog abt the 3 days penang trip... but no time...too tired to do any substantial blogging... dun know why juz feel super ultra tired and lethargic... >.<

To sum it all up, i put on weight for the short 3 days trip and my PT trainer was horrified and so was i. All the hard work for the past few weeks. *sigh* I had extra cardio session yday and it was hell. At the end of the session i was totally flat and dead... Moral: Do Not put on weight when having PT... Anyway... i am ordered to go take an x-ray of my tailbone coz it still hurts when i do situps or crunches on the mat occasionally. And i have just 1 week to do so -.-''' Meanwhile, i am supposed to lose that horrible weight i put on and lose more if possible before i see my trainer again. *faintz*

Here comes the main part... DECISION... 2 choices... Go to Sydney in May to attend the wedding or use that money to sign up for more PT sessions.
Purpose of going to Sydney... attend wedding (obviously) and to go to UNSW to take a look and find out more about hte course i wanna take. OF course it's gonna be a good break too and to meet up with some other cousins.
PT sessions... not that i'm sooo blardy rich to spend my money this way. I'm seeing some results of the money spent and hard work put in. Some muz be thinking... exercise urself lor... i thought about it too... there doesn't seem to be much effect coz i'm no professional. I know how to use the machines (not all) after some of the trainings. But i have no idea when i nid to do wad and the kind of stretches that are required after each set of machines. Surely there's a purpose of having a trainer and paying the trainer. I dun wanna stop halfway now that i've started... I'm hoping for more visible results before i maintain it on my own.
HOW HOW HOWWWWW.... tough decision once again.
WHERE/WHEN IS MY RICH HUSBAND APPEARING/COMING ???? Obviously if i could, i wanna have the best of both worlds... but unfortunately i dun have the means... sheeshhh...
my young rich doctor... ming... u are my only hope !!!! open ur eyes big big plsss !!!!

LOVE...haihhhzzz

2006-04-12T09:09:00.000+08:00

ok.....dun be mistaken...i am NOT in love -.-''''
Love is such a COMPLICATED matter.
3rd party onlookers have a bird's eye view when they listen to the involved parties speak. The views/suggestions they give, sound logical and makes sense most of the time.
As for the parties involved, each think they are right in their own way. In my opinion, they are blinded by their layer of so-called "love". They seem to know what they should be doing, and yet they do not seem to know what they are doing. They want other's opinions and point of view but i feel that deep in them, they already know what they want. The topics juz go round and round and round...
I just hope the 2 parties will think it through properly and let it be "yu guo tian qing" soon.
Oh well.... "wen shi jian qing wei he wu" !!

i am NOT in love...i juz want back my bathroom !!!!!!!! >.<

Decisions...

2006-04-09T23:22:00.000+08:00

We make decisions everyday no matter whether big or small.
Certain ones take a long long time to decide becoz of its consequences. Some can be made easily without much thinking.
Hmm... now the house of 3 has a big decision to make. Which house we wanna stay in... Voting is gonna be anytime soon. *sighz*
So vexed over this... my dad seems to be in a bit "can't be bothered" position. As if he wants both houses... Both also like... both also want to stay. But 1 person how to spilt leh ?? 1 house sure left empty as it is now... and money is juz pumping into it. I have a feeling he wants the big house actually.
On the other hand, my mum is super uptight... coz she does almost 90% of the housework. She wants a quick decision and she feels it's wasting money and energy to maintain 2 houses (which is like definitely true). And i'm pretty sure she wants to stay at the present place.
This also means the last decision vote will lie on me !!!! sheshhhhhh
Torn in between... i also dun know wad to choose. Sometimes being the only child isn't very ideal. When i can't make the my own decision, my mum thinks i'm juz like my dad. Not helping her at all. Then if i side with her, it vice versa. OMG... but my mum is more vocal la. She actually says it out.
Where i stay now is a very centralised location... near for work, gym and going to town. Just that a bit small la... all my things dun knwo can put where. Still got my few boxes of Sammi at the other house :( Clothes, books etc... all like dun know put where if i were to bring everything here. But cleaning house wise, of course this place is much easier. Definitely, everyone likes to stay in big house. At least there's a corner to myself... dun have to bump into anyone all the time. Here, the kitchen can not take mroe than 2 ppl manz... 1 more person, cupboard also cannot open.
If we were to go back to the other place, i'm pretty sure some renovation work will be done. Which also means spending $$$ again. Not that this condo is sooooo beautifully done up but no matter wad, this place is new and money and effort has been spent here.
WHAT SHOULD I DO ????????????

Hair cut !!

2006-04-02T23:19:00.000+08:00

hehehe... hair a bit wet... does my face look a bit smaller ?? :s
top of my head
Just being vain -.-'''

hehehe... i had my hair cut today !!
A sudden gush of vain-ness... i did the usual spa treatment and i highlighted my hair (double highlight... but i only see 1 colour... hmmz... not the usual red anymore... abit more to the blonde side... but it's not too shocking... hehe) !!! Cost me quite a lot manz doesn't really sound like a HDB price)... quite a lot of hair gone too... lolx... but now looking in the mirror, i think i should have asked Mickey to cut more of my fringe... it's still toooo long.... It looked stylish and nice in the salon, now back home, it's in a mess again... :s
Looks like i nid someone to cut my fringe for me.... *shitz*

1st April !!!

2006-04-01T12:30:00.000+08:00

hahaha.... HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL DAY !!!! lolx
No pranks or tricks on anyone this time. I doubt there would be any in years to come unless i have another coy that has got more "yuppy" and fun colleagues. hehe....

Went for PT today...hehehe... i think i'm doing quite well... hehe... pretty satisfied with my progress.... =) Hope the determination stays on !!! My PT is quite motivating... my family too... so there's support !!! Only McD lunch mates a bit hermm... 泼冷水
hahaha... muz add oil !!! My stamina really sucks la...hahaha... run a bit only already wan die .... lolx... muz train harder !!!!

2006-03-31T23:32:00.000+08:00

Rain or shine, i'd faithfully go to the gym nowadays.
Went for body bal... a class which i miss going to. Haven't been going since i started PT and since i fell while blading. That fall was really hell. Now i still a bit of pain. It hasn't healed fully. haihhz... realised i can't do some of the stuff lying down coz it hurts !!! Maybe also the fats around me hindering my movements. hehehe *shyz*
The class was pretty empty compared to usual days. Wai Han attributed it to the RAIN (ties in to my previous entry... excuses !! lolx...)!!! She's cute la...haha... first time listening to her speak in the singlish way. She usually speaks good english ! I like it when there's less ppl. The fri night class is usually packed !! Today more space, not so restrictive ^.^ I didn't go for the body bal 32 launch. No idea wad that is. But today she incorporated some stuff . hmm... new things to learn... and she's damn good. I think her arms muz be damn strong !! I nid practice *shyz* She said tmr she's having the GXO class for mind, body & soul. Less ppl, she can teach and correct our techiques better. Hmm... but i check the schedule... tmr not her class leh... Her's is next wk !! But since i have PT tmr... might as well juz go 1 hr earlier to see see if it's her. lolx... Luckily PT postpone 1 hr later....otherwise even if got class, also cannot make it !
Did some cardio machines after class, bumped into my PT trainer and kick fit trainer. lolx... It's quite nice to know some ppl there... at least there's some hi and byes. Wun feel like an idiot all alone. haha...
It was another stressful day at McD's. McDippers said it feels as if McD is fighting a war !!! I was soooo stressed up since yday. OT until 7.45pm... never before manz.... This morning still stressed. So i think i ate a bit too much during lunch. So guilty... did extra cardio today ! lolx... it's a good way to de-stress !!!!

2006-03-31T16:02:00.000+08:00

hmm... just a sudden thought when i was in the filing room after a conversation...
it's amazing in the McD outlet or even the real world outside... how "people" always manage to find excuses when they do not want to be involved...

Foul mood

2006-03-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

My mood was totally ruined this morning. First, i had to go back to office to finish up some urgent stuff. So i was there since 8.30am. Then when i went to take water, the frooking tea lady was in my way, stirring a jug of coffee. Usually, the kettle on the table is filled with hot water which i take every morning. This morning, i thought it was the same. So i poured little bit. Then the frooking lady shouted at me in chinese "Can't u see i'm making coffee????" As if i were blind and how the hell would i know the kettle was filled with coffee instead? -.-''' And i only poured like LITTLE bit... didn't even fill thefull circumference of my bottle. Not as if i emptied all her coffee. Bloodly hell... and i had go wash my bottle again. Please man... nobody has ever shouted at me in office. If my manager or boss raise voice coz i did something wrong, i will take it. But not over a tiny bit of coffee. I usually am nice and will smile at her. She can forget abt me smiling at her for hte next few days or until i forget this incident which i doubt will be anytime soon.

Back to the McD scenario....
The little McD outlet was busy... everyone had their own chores to do... Small fries was exceptionally busy with her customer changing her orders again and again. Using black sesame mochi's analogy "ehh.. i wan coffee...ehh..nope.. coke better... hmm...dun wan... i wan lime juice.. ehh... i think still coffee better" -.-''''
McNuggets was pressing small fries for more work to be done. On the other hand, small fries heard from choc sundae that apple pie "complained" to McChicken that she was "over-fried". McChicken told McDippers about it and here came McDippers telling small fries that she might need to be fried longer (taking over the deep-frying time of apple pie) WTH.... Small fries is already in the hot oil... struggling for her life. No wonder apple pie is different from the choc sundae, mcflurry and milkshake grp. A bit ostracised.. hmm... small fries better beware. Be on guard... as more hot oil might be poured over the tiny packet of fries... shesshhh....

The tiny McD outlet

2006-03-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

McD's idea originated from Foodenia...
As a McD kid (tt explains why i nid to spend $$$ to lose weight now), i am more familarised with the stuff inside... so... i shall continue living in the world of McD. Somewhere which i dun think i belong becoz i no longer nid fast food....

This morning, i didn't plan my cast properly... kinda impulse thingy....
I shall now plan it such that McD's tiny outlet will have enough to serve its customers.

Well, most importantly, we can never miss out the Big Mac. McD will never be McD without it.
Our main menu consists of McSpicy double, McChicken, McDippers and McNuggets.
Deserts to go along... the famous apple pie, Mcflurry, choc sundae, vanilla cone, milkshake, orange juice (hmm... i nid to look at the menu again for deserts).
And of course not forgetting the all time favourite... SMALL FRIES !!!

The little McD outlet and its happenings... shall be revealed as time goes by....

McD 1

2006-03-28T10:06:00.000+08:00

10am
Haihhz... today McDippers is not around in the outlet... out of stock
Small fries is left to fend on her own. *sulkz*
A customer calls to ask for changes in order... small fries can only listen and make changes but cannot make decisions. Small fries is in a frenzy now... haihhz... she can only hope that the customer does not call again and rush for her order...

Kick Fit is cool !!!!

2006-03-27T23:31:00.000+08:00

Kick fit....fun !! cool !!! tiring !!! burns calories !!! whaahhaahhahaha :p
Enjoyed myself tonight. Getting my fist all wrapped up and geared in boxing gloves. Hehe... learnt the basic punches. Needed a bit of time to get the hang of the punches and the footwork techniques etc... Now my arms feel a bit wobbly again...lolx... so unfit !!!
It was fun.. but after a while u get tired but the trainer goes... "Gimme a 100% full punch!" So there u go... u've gotta give him a nice hard punch, with the nice loud clear sound when u punch against the padding... Shesshhh... Not very easy la.... coz nid to aim properly, use ur hips to turn, concentrate on footwork and use the knuckles to hit. *my knuckles are still very very red from the session !*
Kick fit is cool... it's juz another form of cardio + weight resistance. Learn quite a fair bit from the trainer today. Getting interested too... goshh... i'm really starting to like going to the gym. But ah... everything i like also nid money. Kick fit training sessions also nid money. -.-'''
Going for body combat or JCboxercise are grp classes... dun really learn the techniques. Of course whenever u have a 1-to-1 session u definitely learn more. The trainer told me all the kick fit trainers, majority of their clients are females. lolx... i guess coz all wanna lose weight and a bit of self-defence !!! It's different from PT... no nid machines... all from ur own energy and strength.
Session ended off with more push-ups and crunches.... maybe tt explains my wobbly arms. I still can't do sit-ups on the floor !!! my butt still hurts :(
haihhz.... money money money... i wanna go for more... but no money le.... shall wait a while more then decide again....